The Bet (SF9 DaBin) ~ Book 1

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Youngkyun still wasn't really sure about his feelings for Taeyang, he definitely felt happier whenever he saw him. His smile was infectious and the younger just couldn't help but smile whenever the older was smiling too, it was true that Taeyang was just like his name. He was always bright, radiating good energy wherever he went. It was like he was truly the sun, making everyone happy just by his mere presence. He didn't know if it was love or if it was just the effect Taeyang had on everyone, after all he had no idea how it felt to be in love. He couldn't stop himself from looking at him whenever he had the chance to, his stomach churning every time he did so.
"Is everything alright Youngkyun-ah?" Taeyang asked him during lunch, only looking at the older without eating one bit.
"Yeah I'm just a bit lost in thoughts" he replied, trying to eat at least a little bit. He just wasn't really hungry at all, not when he felt like he had a thousand butterflies in his stomach, feeling nervous without any reason.
"If you feel sick I can go to the nurse with you" Taeyang offered but Youngkyun only shook his head.
"I'm not sick" the younger stated once again, continuing to eat a bit of rice with kimchi. He didn't really know why he was suddenly feeling sad, knowing that Taeyang didn't offer it because he liked him but because Taeyang was always trying to help everyone. It wasn't like he wanted Taeyang to specifically care about him or worry about him but he still felt a bit sad all of a sudden.
It wasn't only Youngkyun who was silently eating, he already noticed in class that Chanhee was rather distant and in a sombre mood. He wanted to ask him about it but something deep down inside of him stopped him from doing it, it was like he wasn't in the position to. There was so much on his mind, so many things have changed ever sine Youngbin and him transferred to this school, making him feel like one year already passed even if it were only a few days.
"Let's go back to class. Our teacher won't be happy if we're late" Juho nudged Seokwoo who only nodded, looking back at Chanhee worriedly before walking off with his best friend. Things still weren't completely fine between them but they both just couldn't stay away from each other. For now Chanhee, Taeyang and Youngkyun were the only ones left since their older friends had lunch a bit later this day.
"I'll go to class first. I still have to finish the exercise from before" Chanhee replied, not waiting for his friends to reply before leaving.
"Youngkyun-ah can I ask you something?" Taeyang asked after a few minutes of silence, taking the younger by surprise.
"Do you maybe want to go out with me?" the older asked after Youngkyun nodded at him in response.
"Like a date?" he surprisedly asked, his heart beating faster when he waited for Taeyang's answer.
"No no don't worry, I'm not gay but friends can go out together too, right?" the older chuckled as he smiled at him brightly.
"Yes of course, I'm not either" Youngkyun replied, feeling his heart clench a bit.
"Our friends must have influenced us to think of everything as a date."
"Yeah maybe. When do you want to go out?"
"Tomorrow? Going for lunch and then playing soccer or basketball?" Taeyang proposed, still smiling brightly at him.
"Yeah sounds good. Where?"
"Where do you live? I can come over and then we can go together."
"I'll send you my adress later" Youngkyun replied to which the older only nodded.
Youngkyun was even more confused, feeling so hurt by what Taeyang said even if he didn't want to admit that he could be in love with him.
"I think we should go to class too" Taeyang replied, waiting for Youngkyun to stand up and follow him out of the canteen.
"I'll finish this but you can go first."
"But what if you get into trouble?" the older asked, making Youngkyun snort. Why would he suddenly care about him like that?
"I won't and now go to your class before you're the one getting into trouble."
"Fine but I expect you to go to your class on time. I'll ask Chanhee about it" Taeyang warned, his smile turning into a serious expression.
"Do what you think is right" Youngkyun mumbled, watching the older leave before letting out a low groan.
"Why are you so stupid Kim Youngkyun? Are you seriously developing feelings right now?" his head was spinning, he couldn't stop thinking about the way he was feeling when he was with Taeyang and how much it hurt to hear the older tell him he wasn't into boys. He never thought he would ever fall in love with another boy like his brother. He wanted to hit himself, it couldn't be true. He loved his brother and his new friends but he never wished for falling in love with a girl so badly as he did now. He was scared and he didn't want Taeyang to be the first person who broke his heart.

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I'm so mad at myself for writing such awful chapters. 🤭