The Bet (SF9 DaBin) ~ Book 1

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"Chanhee? Can I ask you something?" Seokwoo asked as he was sitting on his carpeted floor, chin resting on his knees as he watched the younger finishing his homework.
"Hm?" the younger only hummed in response, not looking up from his workbook.
"Why did you get a therapy? What for? And please don't say you don't want to talk about it. I only worry about you and want to help you."
"Ugh fine" Chanhee sighed, closing his workbook as his eyes met the older's gaze.
"I can't love and accept the way I am that's why the mobbing started and I got depressed. I can't think of myself as desirable or good enough, I feel like being a disappointment and a burden. I have an anxiety disorder which leads to various anxiety attacks without a real trigger. I'm just a complete wreck, that's why I don't want you to be in love with me."
"You're not Chanhee. You're not seeing what I do. I would always chose you, no matter what. I love you and nothing can change that. It may seem hard but we can work on something to make you feel better, alright?"
"There are so many things wrong with me, I just don't get why you are trying so hard" the younger sighed while breaking the eye contact.
"Please tell me Chanhee. How is it possible to make you so doubtful about yourself and others? Who did this to you?"
"It was me. I never liked myself and I often wanted to just vanish before all of this started" he defended himself, feeling his anger well up as his doubts and self-disgust rose inside him.
"Do you think it's better if everyone stares at you whenever they get the chance to? I also have my doubts and worries but that's normal Chanhee. You shut people out without even trying to fight against your fears."
"I know that I'm a coward but it's easier than to face it. It would be the best to stop trying so hard and just leave me alone" Chanhee sighed, not wanting to be in Seokwoo's way and completely destroy his reputation.
"Seriously Chanhee you still don't get it. I'm so head over heels in love with you, just the way you are. I'm willing to do everything for you to feel better but you have to accept me and my love. Can you do that?" Seokwoo asked as he scooted closer to him, gently taking his hands into his own.
"I don't know" the younger replied while casting his gaze off the older, feeling nervous with Seokwoo being so close to him.
"I have an idea. I won't pressure you, if you say you need time alone I'm fine with it. If you say you need me I'll always be by your side. I understand that it's hard for you to accept this and trust me but let's work it out together. I feel happy when I'm with you and I don't want to loose my happiness. Are you okay with that?"
"I guess so" the younger nervously replied as he slowly lifted his gaze up to look into Seokwoo's eyes.
"Chanhee-yah can I ask you something?" he asked and the younger only nodded, feeling way too shy to talk.
"If I said I want to kiss you right now would you allow me to do it?" Seokwoo carefully asked, immediately noticing the younger's blushing cheeks.
"I n-never did this b-before" the younger stuttered, feeling completely embarrassed now.
"It's nothing to be ashamed of. If you don't want to I'm fine with it."
"I am curious but I'm also nervous."
"How about we'll try and then you tell me if you liked it or not?" Seokwoo suggested and Chanhee shyly nodded, feeling his heart beating faster as Seokwoo scooted even closer, their knees overlapping now and Seokwoo now only inches away from him. Gently he removed one of his hands to place it on his cheek, softly rubbing his thumb over his cheekbone to calm him a bit down.
"Just relax and enjoy it" Seokwoo advised as he leaned in even closer, Chanhee shutting his eyes tightly as he waited for the older to continue whatever he wanted.
Taking one last look at the younger he also closed his eyes before overcoming the last few centimeters, carefully placing his lips over the youngers in a tender kiss. Experimentally Seokwoo started to move his lips, creating a slow and steady rhythm the younger surprisingly followed. It didn't last long but it was everything Seokwoo wanted and needed in this moment, happily embracing the younger after the kiss.
"We can do it. Together" the older whispered into his ear before tightening his embrace a bit.

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Cute filler chapter. Also Chanhee's character isn't exaggerated, I'm the same 😭