Forgotten...

Chapter 9

We arrived at the party, aka the frat house.

    "Who lives here this is like my dream house!" I exclaimed.

"I think someone named Misha lives here with like 12 other guys," Jared said.

We walked through the door and were instantly hit with a wave of people and loud music. I would prefer less people but I dont mind the music. It was so packed, more packed than the last one.

   "It's so packed" I yelled back to Courtney over the blaring music.

"Misha and his crew are pretty popular!" she yelled back, "lets find the alcohol!" she smiled tugging my arm. We left Jensen and Jared to fend for themselves. We pushed our way through the enourmous pack of people and found the bar.

   "I'm gunna get so drunk!" Courtney boomed.

   I smiled. "I don't know if I am" I yelled grabbing a red solo cup, filling it with Korona beer.

"Let loose babe" I heard Jensen say behind me, I turned around and smiled at him.

      "I guess I could, this time only" I said poking his chest.

A couple hours later I don't think I can remember my name. My vision is blurred and I'm grinding on random people. Jensen has been giggling nonstop and Jared and Courtney have dissapeared once again. I kinda like the way his feels, being so careless and free. The last time I got this drunk was when my dad left. That was also the time I almost killed myslef. I don't wanna think about that though. I walked over to Jensen and smiled grabbing his collar and pulling him into me. 

     "Enjoying the party?" he slurred smiling.

I just nodded cause I don't think I would be able to form words.

We danced to the song day n night by kid cudi, with flashing red light and blue lihjts moving around the room. I have never really let myself go this loose. I always keep a tigh leash on myself. But I really didn't care at the moment all I cared about was dancing with the hottest guy on the face of the planet.

  "This is fucking fantasical" I yelled grinding up against Jensen.

  He laughed "I don't think 'fantastical' is a word" 

"Whatever!" I said back.

"Your so hot" Jensen said biting his lip.

  "Don't do that!" I scolded him.

"I can do waht I want to do, You aren't my boss" he said sarcasticly.

   "I gotta pee" I said kissing him then stumbling around to find a bathroom.

I found one and did my business and fixed my hair. I look like crap. My makeup was smeared and smudged all over, my hair was just everywhere and my eyes were bloodshot. I'm a mess.

I started walk- trying to walk back to where I think I left Jensen. He wasn't there. I decided to go find him. It was so difficult to walk and see straight, but thats my fault. I walked into the living room which was full of people, a bunch of girls were dancing topless. I scanned the room for Jensen, nowhere. I went down to the basement, which was less busy and saw a couple making out on a counter. I did a double take when I realized it was Jensen with a random girl. My heart stopped. The world froze. I was stunned. Just as I was beleiving him, he played me for a fool. I could feel the tears gathering in my eyes. I didn't want him to see me cry so I ran as fast as my drunken legs would go back up the stairs. I fell making a loud bang causing Jensen to look up. I hid my face, not letting him see me cry.

    "Dani, it's-it's not waht it seems," he slurred pushing the girl off of him.

"I don't want to see you ever again!" as soon as those words came out, I wished them back.

 His eyes were sad. He just sat there. "Dani I-"

     "Save it for someone who cares," I got up and ran up the stairs leaving him bewildered.

I just want to leave and go home. Home. With my mom and my own bed, my old life. I'm just so heartbroken to handle this. I walk out the doors and begin walking home. Drunk and alone. I made a promise to myself that night, to never let a guy sweep me off my feet like that.