Guys
I swear
I was watching the last four episodes of steven universe future
And i just
That episode with Stevens meltdown "I am my monster" had me thinking about shit in my own life
Like with trying to say everythings fine
And it made me realize that I'm still not okay
As often as I try to tell myself I'm okay I know deep down im not
I'm trans and I tried to come out to my parents but now it feels like I'm back in the closet
I dont know who the fuck to talk to anymore
People who go on others stories will tell those authors they can talk to them
Ice done it too
People say it to me
But I just dont have the courage to go through and message them because I feel like im wasting their time
I really just dont know what to do with myself
That monster steven turned into is a pretty great representation of everything
And I bet other people related to it to
Everything just feels so big
I can't even talk to my own family about the whole transgender thing simply because they don't agree with it
I feel like ive just been hiding my whole life and I dont know how to deal with it
I wanna talk to my friends but it always feels like I'm wasting their damn time
Im thinking about messaging one of my friends in more detail but theres a small parr of me that's afraid they won't care
I constantly feel like im in my own war in my head with no way out and I dont have anyone to help me with it
