Hyunlix OneShots

Bad Habits

A/n: Mild angst. This wasn't from the prompt generator,  this was one of my ideas. Enjoy reading💞

Hyunjin was.. Again, lighting a cigarette he took from his pocket. He was at an overlooking, leaning on his black expensive car.

See this is one of his bad habits. As much as he wants to stop, he misses the way mint soothes his throat. He misses the way he puffs smoke out. He misses the way he lights every cigarette he owns.

He has many bad habits.

He peels his lips til it bleeds.

He often gets into many fights.

He drag races.

He drinks alcohol.

But he thinks that these aren't really his bad habits.

His bad habit is one person.

Lee Felix.

The one he knows he can't own because he already belongs to another person.

How come?

The way his eyes looked at Felix from top to bottom. The way his mind runs whenever he see the said guy. The way his thoughts run wild whenever they talk.

Felix was his bad habit.

He wasn't really into smoking, he wasn't the one who picks up fights. He wasn't fond of alcohols and drag races. But when he knew he can't be with his bestfriend? When he knew he was too late?

He loved them.

He loved the way, he lights up his cigarette. He loved the feeling of speed when he drag races. He loved the feeling of picking up fights because he was hurting.

He loved Felix.

He still loves him.

But he knew he can't really do anything now that he's engaged.

Hyunjin got it all. He has the money, the freedom, the fame.

But he was sad he couldn't have the person he wants. He couldn't have the feeling he was longing for.

He doesn't have someone who sneaks out with him every night just to see the stars. The one who will be by his side during meetings, no one holds his hands while he's nervous. Well, not anymore.

He's engaged.

And he was getting married.

And he can't take that away because he isn't a selfish prick who fucks up other relationships just because he wants to have one.

Hyunjin felt his pocket vibrate, indicating someone calling him.

He fished his phone from his pocket and answered without looking at the caller id.

"hmm?" he talked, he sucked in the cig and blew out the smoke.

"where the hell are you, Hwang Hyunjin" when he heard his bestfriend's voice he smirked. But this one was a sad smirk.

"And why are you calling me? Its midnight and a week before your wedding" Hyunjin said as tears threatened to fall from his eyes.

"are you smoking again?" Felix asked.

"No." Hyunjin lied.

"liar."

That was then, he felt a paper thrown at him from his back.

He quickly wiped his eyes and turned around.

"I missed you you idiot" a crying Felix said. Still not putting the phone down.

Hyunjin stayed quiet as he turned his back from Felix and threw away the cigarette he was just using.

He looked at his phone, ended the call with Felix as he was already here. He took time looking at his wallpaper. It was a selfie with Felix. It was took at the first amusement park "date" without their parents. They were 15. And now they were 23. So many things has changed. Even their friendship lied low. One of the reasons are, Felix is getting married. Next week.

"Why did you lie?" Felix questioned.

I always lie. Hyunjin thought. I also lied when I said it was okay when you moved out from our apartment so you could be with Changbin.

"why aren't you going to my wedding? You said you were gonna be the best man. You said you were gonna be beside me when I get married?"

Fuck I wanted to be your husband not your fucking bestman.

Hyunjin almost broke down but he composed himself.

"We were going to take care of my kids, remember?"

Fuck Fe I wanted to be the father of your kids.

"I'm sorry. Your wedding date interfered with an important meeting." suck your own lies Hyunjin. fucking Hyunjin.

"your bestfriend's wedding? Hyun we beasically grew up together and you can't cancel a f--"

"How can I stand the love of my life getting married if its not me who he's marrying?!" Hyunjin bursted.

"Wh-what" Felix's eyes were wide now. He was shocked.

"I love you, Felix. And it hurts. This is wrong fuck I shouldn't be confessing" Hyunjin gets the key from his pocket and opened the car.

Felix ran and closed the car door just as when Hyunjin was opening it.

"since when?" Felix asked.

Tears were now spilling from Hyunjin's eyes.

"Its not important" He said.

"No. Fucking tell me Hwang." Felix was now holding Hyunjin's wrist.

"Whats the point now that you're getting fucking married?" Hyunjin retrieves his arm from Felix's hold. "Be happy, Felix. I'll see you when I see you"

Hyunjin was about to get inside when Felix pulled his arm and kissed him.

Hyunjin pulled away.

"What the fuck Felix what did you do?!" Hyunjin shouted.

"I love you too."

"You're getting married. Fuck you don't make me feel like this." Hyunjin spat.

"it was arranged. I was losing hope because I thought you don't love me back. So I agreed." Felix was now looking down.

"what?"

"Hyunjin why didn't you tell me earlier?" Felix asked. Looking at Hyunjin's eyes, he held his cheek.

"Because I was scared to lose this beautiful friendship we have" Hyunjin held Felix's hand on his cheek.

"Since when?" Felix asked again.

"Since middle school." Hyunjin admitted.

"That long?"

Hyunjin nodded.

"What do you wanna do?" Hyunjin asked.

"I wanna be with you." Felix answered.

"Let's run away?"

Felix kissed him again.

As they settled at Hyunjin's car, He smiled to himself and looked at Felix once again.

Lee Felix was indeed the Bad Habit he can't take away from himself.