Dear Chronicle,
"Go and die in a hole no one will care." That's what one of Jesse's friends told me today at school.
And I wondered if he's right. After all nobody cares about me, nobody will notice if I disappear. I'm living a life full of pain and regrets and sometimes I wish I wasn't alive, that death would come and take me away when I fell asleep. But honestly there's a difference between the two, living and being alive.
Living is to be happy. To enjoy the earth, to laugh and smile and love life. Being alive is simply surviving. To carry on breathing, for your heart to carry on breathing. I am alive, but I'm not breathing. I use to live but not anymore. I'm just counting down the days till I don't have to cling anymore.
But as for now the only reason why I'm still alive i s because I don't want to hurt mum and Jesse.
Love,
RAE
YOU ARE READING
Her Chronicle
ChickLitwhen you're depressed you don't control your thoughts your thoughts control you.... I wish people could understand this....
