Random Stuff That I Think

Feeling Sad

If there's one thing I hate its feeling upset. TBH I hate feelings in general.

I don't know if Its just me but when I'm overwhelmed with a bunch of conflicting (usually negative) feelings, my first reaction is to cry.

I hate crying, not only does it bother me and it's annoying it also gives me a huge headache the next morning.

And I noticed that normally I'm a happy person, maybe a bit over excited, but whenever I end up feeling sad and blue it's usually because of someone else. Like I'm not upset with myself, rarely, but I'm almost always upset because of someone else.

Like for example, if someone were to -especially if I'm really close to them-get upset with me, I'll be upset. Especially if I want to fix our relationship. . . .

I don't like that. . . .the fact that other people make me upset to the point where I feel like crying or getting so angry I want to punch something. .anything. .it annoys me. I know it's not really the other persons fault but still like its my emotions yet other people have control over them some how

I dunno why I made this rant . . Maybe it's because I feel upset and I need to vent but starting today... Ill try not to let other people have control over my emotions. . Not matter who they are. .

If your feeling this way just remember that at the end of the day. . . .it's your life, you'll have to deal with your decisions and choices so if someone says something that makes you upset forget them. They are irrelevant little bugs in your life...feel happy and try to see the light at the end of the jungle ;)

But before you forget them, think if they're worth fighting for or not. You might regret it if you don't.

Queen Out