Random Stuff That I Think

Being Happy & Stuff

I don't know about u but im feeling 22!!! Lol im not.

But is it just me but I love making people happy. Like the thought of saying or doing something for someone and it making there day brings literal tears of joy to my eyes.

I mean if you know me and talk to me on a daily basis you might not be able to tell, considering the fact I dont really hold back on my insults lol. But honestly making people happy makes me happy...to the point of tears.

I think it might be because I know what it feels like to feel upset and alone. To feel as though I hold no importance to anyone in the world, as though im just a nuisance in someones wonderful life. I know how it feels.

So I guess I want people to not feel like that, and to know that a complete stranger or a close friend thinks they're pretty awesome.

If someone came up to me and told me I was beautiful id be happy. It would probably make the rest of my day. If someone complemented my outfit it would make my day. If someone told me that they thought I was a wonderful person, I think I would have to try my best to hold back tears.

As much as I hate to admit it but im just as insecure as the next girl. But one thing I do know is that no matter what anyone says its never going to be important. If someone says im a terrible and horrific person, I wont believe it you know why? Cause I know im not no matter how badly I can bad mouth myself.

Someone can call me ugly. Its not the truth, you know why? Because i know im beautiful even if I dont always believe it.

No one knows you better than you. No one has a say in who you are and who you wish to become or what you wish to do because its all up to you.

Sometimes I hear or read about people who complain about their parents controlling their lives this is what I have to say about it.

(This is an original quote by the way)

Never live for your parents, always live for yourself. But as long as you live under their roof abide by their rules. -Queen Cinnabun (Cece♥)

What this means is be yourself but listen to what your parents ask you to do. If you dont want to inherit a belief your parents live by dont. Just listen to what they have to say.

This can be applied anywhere, the point of this quote is to live for no one but yourself no matter who they are. Always live your life cause at the end of the day you will be the one who has to deal with the desisions you make.

I want every single one of you to know you are loved and appreciated and things would never be the same without you here. I want you guys to know that if you feel as though everyone hates you know that I dont and that even though I dont know you or have never met you and probably never will, I love you.

As a person, as a human, as a boy, as a girl, as someone who has meaning and purpose.

I want you to know no matter how alone you make feel, I will be there in spirt to hold your hand and to hug you and to lend my shoulder for you to cry on. If you believe in God any God, pray to him. Ask him to give you strength and hope and courage to carry on despite your hardships and fears and wrong doings and self hatred. If you dont believe in God I will pray for you tonight, as often as I can, for those things for you. And I hope through my prayers some good and magnificent will come your way.

Every single one of you holds a purpose inside,outside of you. You mean something. And I hope sooner rather than later you realize this. I want you to know that when your body is shaking with tears, that ill be willing to hold you and forgive you and help you. I want you to know that when you take that sharp knife or razor to cut your skin one more time I will be there in spirt to stop you I cant guarantee that my saying will bless you I cant promise to be there for everyone of you. Im not, I just want you to know that today right now my heart reaches out to you, that even though I dont know or feel your pain I care.

I care so much its a little scary but I do. I want you all to know someone can save you, it may not be someone else but it could be yourself. Remember that you dont need someone to save you, you can do it for yourslef its just good to have some backup.

I want you to know right now im crying for you, that my heart literally feels like its breaking to know to even think that you guys think of youselves as less than amazing. That you think your worth nothing more than the dirt we spit on. It hurts me so deeply that my tears are almost uncontrollable.

I hate that you think of yourslef that way, please dont. I want you to know that despite you mistakes, no matter how big, despite your self hate, despite what you think is wrong with you its ok. Everyone makes mistakes just have the strength to carry on and make a better you. One that isnt held back by their past mistakes.

I know how that feels to feel as though all the mistakes you've made in the past are like an anchor dragging you down, making to impossible for you to swim. I cant say I know how it feels to finally let go of the anchor but.....

I hope this here made you smile, I know im usually more laid back and chilled and funny, but I felt a bit more serious today. Haha hope this made you guys happier today. :-)

-Queen out ♡