Michaeng-I Don't Deserve You

I love you

Chaeyoungs pov.

When Mina pushed me against the car and suddenly kissed me, I could tell, that she was jealous. To be honest I don't even know why she was... There was no reason for her to be jealous at all. Seulgi didn't even cross my mind, since I've met Mina, I forgot about her. After we came out of that cave, everything was clear for me. I was sure about everything.

Mina defeated me. She defeated me and even though this verb has got a quite negative meaning for peoples majority, I understood, that it wasn't bad for me. Not at all. It was like, she had control over my whole body...my heart. And even though my whole life was in the hands of this girl...in the hands of the most innocent, kind-hearted and beautiful human being I've ever met in my entire life...I felt save. I felt save, because she was the person, I had given my heart to. To be honest...she could break me and I'd be glad about that. I'd be glad about it, because she would be the person doing it.

I broke the kiss and looked into her eyes. I looked into her heart. It's true, when people say, that eyes never lie.
I held her red cheeks between the inside of my hands, trying to hold her like this as soft as I could, not wanting to hurt her in the slightest way as possible. And without me noticing, I already felt the wetness on my cheeks. While closing my eyes, I felt her thumbs caressing my now wet area. And before the beauty in front of me could even speak, she got pulled into a tight hug. I wanted her to know, how I felt. I needed her to know.

,,Chaeng...what's wrong? You know you can always speak to me..."

Hearing her soft voice, made me soften the hug. My hands sneaking around her waist now. Caressing it. Softly.

,,It's nothing Mina...It's nothing. I just...I feel happy...I feel blessed to be more exact. Lets just head to the hotel already. It's getting dark. I don't want you to get hurt by someone."

When I felt her backing away, I slowly let her go, so that she could go into the car. I opened her door, treating her like a lady. Treating her like my lady. Then I went to my door and also got in. I started the engine and drove to our hotel, already excited for the time we could spend together.

,,Chaeyoung, I wanted to ask you something...so umm...yesterday...you said, that the girl you've been with wasn't your girlfriend. Did you just say that, because you wanted me to not worry about her and that we could...you know...sleep with each other or was it the truth? If you don't want to answer, you don't have to I'm just curious and wanted t-"

I immediately stopped her speaking, when I put my hand on her thigh. Caressing it slowly. I didn't want to lie to her about it. It's just...I was jealous and acted like an idiot.

,,She isn't my girlfriend. She never was. I also didn't have a date with her...I'm sorry for lying about this. It' just...I...I got jealous, when I saw you eating with that guy. He was goodlooking and you two seemed so close and I just couldn't take that, so I also wanted to make you jealous...I'm sorry, I should have just talked about it with you..."

She then put her left hand on mine and held it tight, looking at me while doing that.

,,Don't apologize for that...it's not you fault. Jealousy took over you and that's okay. No one's perfect and neither are you or me. To be honest, I also got quote jealous, when I heard about you and your ex a while ago, so don't worry about it too much."

She then turned her head to my side and giggled, showing her gummy smile. I loved seeing her smiling. It could make me happy, even when skies are grey. Even on the darkest days, she could make me feel happy.

,,You are Minari."

I then saw her questioning look, not knowing what I meant with that.

,,What am I Changie?"

While putting both my hands on the steering wheel again, I looked at the road again. Seeing nothing more, than emptiness again.

,,Perfect...If I had to describe that adjective , I would probably just take you as an example to describe the word. You're the type I want to spend hours a day reading, despite the papercuts on my fingers, from turning the pages too quickly. To be honest...I've never been one to compare human beings to art, yet I find myself getting lost in the sculpture, that is your body. Sometimes I think, that maybe you wrote the true definition for what true beauty is, because you're just too good to be true. You're perfect Myoui Mina. Everything about you. "

,,Chaeyoung...please...please stop the car for a minute."

,,Why Mi-"

,,Just please stop it."

I then slowed the car down and held on the right. When I did that, she put her hands behind my neck and pulled me towards her. She put her small and soft lips on mine and kissed me. She slowly backed away with her hands still behind my neck and opened her eyes bit by bit. We looked at each other and she said it. After such a long time. After so many weeks of me waiting for her to say it. For either of us to say it, she finally did.

,,I love you, Son Chaeyoung."