Michaeng-I Don't Deserve You

I hate you Son Chaeyoung.

Minas pov.

Betrayed. That's what I felt like right now. What I feel like to be exact. I couldn't trust my eyes. The person, that made me feel the happiest made me feel like dying. I wanted to run away from what I was seeing right now. I wanted to leave. But how could I when the love of my life was laying there unconscious.
I tried moving my feet, but it didn't seem like it wanted to move at all. Tears escaping my eyes already without me even noticing.

All of sudden I feel my stiff body returning to its normal state again. Not in the good way though. It was just, that seeing my lovers ex caring for her, showed me how needless I was for Chaeyoung. She didn't need me anymore. I don't even know if she ever did and that made my tears stream down even quicker. It made the lump in my throat grow twice its size. Made my heart ache even more then it already did.

My feet slowly backing away, I was now running out of the bar, trying not to fall because of the typsiness I was still feeling from the drinks I had. I wanted to forget everything...or to be more precise I just wanted to forget her, but on the other hand I wasn't sure about if I maybe just overreacted and there was an explanation. It's just i don't even know why her ex is acten like this all of sudden, when she didn't really have anything against me and Chaeyoung dating the last time we've seen her. She even gave us the cure, so why would want Chaeyoung back now?

I decided to take the next bus to our hotel and sleep a bit. I need to clear my mind first before just doing dumb things. When I arrived at the hotel, I went to bed, trying to get sleep as fast as I could. I couldn't bear thinking about the situation anymore.

When I woke up the next morning I had a bad headache, but that wasn't even the worst. The memories about last night made me even weaker. The pain made it feel like a knife in my heart.

I slowly move my legs off the bed, now walking to the kitchen, searching for a tablet against headache, luckily finding one afterwards.
,,Ughh...I wish there were tablets against heartache."
I say to miself, taking my phone into my hand, thinking about whether I should text Chaeyoung or not.

Pushing away my thoughts, I know went on our chat, texting her out of my worryness, hoping she's okay. But mostly hoping that she has an explanation for everything that happaned.

,Hey Chaeyoung...are you...okay? You got unconscious yesterday night and I'm a bit worried...ughh I mean... not just a bit I'm...really worried..please text me where you are so that I can come pick you up. We need talk.'

I sent her the message and waited for her to answer me finally, sitting on a chair while my legs fidgeted. When my phone finally vibrated, I immediately opened it and saw Chaeyoungs message, which made me feel like I couldn't speak at all.

,Hey Mina, you don't vae to pick me up I'm with Sdulgi right now. I'm really sorry that I have to say this, but I kind of noticed, that I still have some feelings for her. It's not like I didn't love you, but me and her have been together for a long time and it's just not something I can forget about this fast. I hope you forgive me...you should have just taken the cure..'

And that was it. I looked at her message. Reading it over and over again. Still not accepting the fact she ended us this quick. Not accepting the fact, she told me this would be forever yesterday and leaving me like this all of sudden. Leaving me drowning. I was standing in the puddle of my own tears and nobody could even notice. I was sinking deeper from second to second and no one could helo me out, that's what I felt like right now.

Trying to pull myself together, I now walk to our bedroom, packing my stuffs and taking all I need with me, trying not to look back. I can't bear the pain. I get out of the hotel with all the things, that I've went in to before. Except for her. I walked and walked. Running away from my problems. Trying to run away from the pain. But hoe could I. When the pain was right inside my chest. Inside my heart.

When i saw a taxi, I gave it a sign and got in instantly, telling the driver to go to the airport as fast as he could. Whem we arrived, I got out of the taxi, running into the airport, searching for a flight back. For my luck there was one back to Seoul in 2 hours and so I waited, thinking about all the things she said. The promises she made. I should have known better. Should have known how selfish she is...

But now I know...it was a game for her and love just made me blind...I hate you Son Chaeyoung. I deserve better.

Heyyyy...new update, hope you'll like it. As I said already you'll get some drama and pain stuff from now on.
...Anyway...so from may on I'll have school again and I'm quite excited, since it's been forever, that I haven't seen my friends. Keep safe.
Xoxo
~Manolya