Michaeng-I Don't Deserve You

Do you forgive me?

Minas pov.

I got into my parent's car, turning on the engine immediately. Acting as fast as I can as if I'm in a race. It's...my fault. I should have not let her go. How can someone literally be as dumb as me. How could I have just left without even checking on her. Why did I believe what my eyes said, instead of believing what my heart was telling me.

I drove to her place and instantly got out of the car when I arrived, wasting no time. I went inside only to be greeted by the empty atmosphere. She wasn't here.

I thought about where she might be. Where did she go when she's not here. No ideas at all seemed to be getting inside my head, till suddenly my thoughts were interrupted my the picture of me and Chaeyoung on top of the city entering my mind. That place...

I ran to my parent's car and didn't waste any time driving to the place Chaeyoung took me to that night. I drove and drove till after a while I finally arrived and so I literally jumped out of the car and ran towards the girl, that was standing a few steps away from me.

When I took a closer look, I noticed, that she was only a small step away from falling all the way down. I teared up looking at her like that. I've never thought, that love could bring someone in such a situation.

,,No! Please...just...just come here...please!"

I shout with a small voice, trying to sound as soft as I can, so that I don't scare her or something. Instead of only seeing her back like the last few seconds, I was now greeted by the look of pure sadness, when she finally turned around to face me. Her stuffy nose and red eyes telling me, that it wasn't long ago, that she cried.
I reach out my hand, not breaking our eye contact.

,,Chaeyoung please...just...just listen to me...it's not what you think..let me explain."

She just laughed at what I said and looked on her shoes, ignoring my still reaching hand for her.

,,It's nit what I think?? Oh come on just...just let it be...It's not like you gave me any time to explain what happened...You just...left me...fuck Mina you just left me back and let me get...let me get fucking beaten up by her...let me ger fucking marked by this hot ass rod...and then...then just because of you I even almost got raped! And you think saying sorry after just kissing my brother will make it good already? Are you serious? Do you even care about me Mina? Do you even love me??? Because if you really did...you wouldn't have let me back there at first place. You would have talked to me...You would have not just let me back there unconscious...But still...after all you've done...I still wanted to forgive you. I wanted to give you another chance. But looks lkke you've moved on already..."

She kind of shouted saying all of this, tears streaming down her face while telling me all that happened to her while I left, making me just feel worse than I already felt.

,,W-What do you mean with...you getting beaten up, almost getting raped and...getting...marked?"

I asked her, looking on my feet and letting my tears fall down already while doing so, feeling gulitier than ever.

,,You really wanna know huh? Let me just tell you! After that night Seulgi fucking trapped me inside an empty house so fucking far away from the city! She handcuffed me and marked me with a fucking hot rod on my thigh! And then I had to fucking kill her and try finding a way out of where I even was...and as if that wasn't enough, I almost got raped from an old, disgusting man inside the woods! And all that just because you...because you left me."

The last thing she said, sounded more like a realization, her voice kind of broken while saying it. It hit me. It really did. It hit me more than any of the things, thar she said before. And right when I was about to say something she took her step forward. Right when she was about to fall down the cliff, I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards me, making her fall on top of me afterwards.

,,No! Don't you ever do that again Chaeyoung! Please...just don't. I know what I did was just...so fucking dumb...mire than just dumb, but I was so hurt back then so please! I need you to hear me out abou Suyeon...I know back then, that I didn't give you the chance to explain...b-but I know you can do better than that, so please...please, please, please...my love"

I said, hugging her and crying while doing so. I couldn't even imagine a world without her...I need her...no matter if we're together or not, I just...need to know that she's...with me. And right after what I said she looked me into my eyes, still not pushing me away.

,,Talk."