Am I Manly Yet? Kiribaku + Bakuquad

I Already Know, Trust Me {Chapter 8}

*DISCLAIMER* I'm not going to be giving individual warnings for each chapter because I don't want to spoil what happens. Just know, it's probably gonna get worse from here on out. I'm in NO WAY making fun of anything like depression, abuse, suicide, or anything else. If you're sensitive to this stuff or just dont like it, then don't read it. Thats all

KIRI'S DAD-

Name: Riku

Quirk: Can Harden any non living object into a rock like material, its surface automatically becomes jagged and rough

KIRI'S MOM- 

Name: Sana

Quirk: Can harden her hair and control it. When she activates her quirk, her hair can grow as long as she wants it to. When she deactivates it, her hair goes back to its natural state.

{Kiri's POV} 

Friday was an easy day, and we got to go home early too. Even though that's supposed to be a good thing, it's not for me. At home, Im constantly reminded how much of a worthless human I am, but at school at least my friends appear to love me. Nothing really changed between the Bakusquad since Thursday, the only difference is that they know I'm gay. I still feel guilty about the whole thing though, I just feel horrible. I feel like I'm disappointing to everyone, even if they except me as gay. Even if someone excepts me as gay, the would never except me as me. Im just a useless and horrible person. 

I stayed home this weekend because of my thoughts, and I also had to do a lot of work. Everyday, it seems like more things are added into my list of chores and homework. I have to cook everyday now, even though it never comes out right. I had a lot to do over the weekend, especially because I got behind on homework last week. Luckily, I got pretty caught up over the weekend, even if I don't understand most of it still. I'm trying not to get behind this week, so yesterday I did all my homework, chores, and sad attempts at studying , which left me barely any time to do anything else. I did the same things after I got home today, except one math sheet I just can't understand. Since it's Tuesday, not many people are awake or willing to help me by the time I'm done with chores, and I also don't want to be a burden to anyone. I'm planning on doing it later, or maybe doing it tomorrow before math class. 

Right now I'm cooking dinner, and I'm allowed to eat tonight too! I'm really excited because tonight we're having  steak with rice, corn and potatoes, and I LOVE steak. Damn, its sooo good! I got started cooking late because I was busy doing other work, so by the time dinner is done, it's like 11:00pm. I only realize how tired I really am after I look at the clock. It's understandable, I haven't slept very much due to how busy I am. After I eat, I'm immediately going to sleep. I set the table, fix everyones plates, and call my parents down for dinner

I see my father come into the kitchen from the living room, and very soon after my mother comes in from the direction of her office. "Thank you Eijirou. Have you finished your chores and homework for the day?" my mother says, after quietly pulling out a chair and sitting down. My father sits down, and I sit down beside my father, and across from my mother. After everyone is seated, I say "Yes ma'am.". I begin to eat, and before I can get very far, my mother says "Make sure to do the dishes before going to bed.". I internally groan, but nod yes anyway. I totally forgot about dishes, and I'm really tired, but I'll do them like I'm supposed to. We eat dinner for a minute or two, the only sound being the clank of our mental forks against porcelain plaits. 

No one has made a effort to converse, that is, until father says "Eijirou, this is shit. How many times horrible efforts does it take to actually succeed just for once?". I know, I know that I shouldn't say anything besides 'I'll try better', but I've been working all day, and I just want rest. After working at school, I came home and worked on homework, then chores, then extra chores, then studying, then dinner, and I already have a shorter temper because I have barely slept. Taking all this into consideration, whenever someone tells you the reality of how you a failure, you just don't want to hear it. So instead of biting my tongue and saying 'yes sir', I say "But Sir, I've been working all day and- I mean really how hard can it be to cook dinner!". My father cuts me off before I can finish my sentence. I take a breath, take a small bite, then bitterly say "I don't want to hear it.".