ordinary foreigner - felix x reader

21

He never called me.
A week had passed, then two, then three.
The drama had died down and the fans had forgotten about the entire scandal.
I texted him multiple times but the messages were never even opened.
He's probably really busy...The agency is probably really mad at him for causing this situation...They probably took his phone away.
All these thoughts passed through my head as I was packing my things.
My flight was actually in two days, I was flying back to America for the start of my senior year.
I really did not want things to end this way between us, with no proper goodbye...I want to hate him because it will make things a lot easier, but i can't.
I don't know what he's going through right now and why he still didn't text me...but I have to accept the fact that he is an idol. And he is not going to give up his career for me.
It's very selfish to want him to do it, and I do want him to do it deep in my heart. But I knew that that would never have a good outcome.
Chan would occasionally text me, and so would Changbin and Jeongin, however when I tried asking them about Felix they would just go quiet and then say something like, "um...I'm really sorry Y/n, but...we can't really talk about him...he's going through things and we aren't allowed to tell anyone...we're really really sorry..." and I would smile and reply "it's ok...I understand", as tears would run down my cheek.
"If you're not too busy...you should come say bye to me on Monday...I'm flying back to the states at 9pm that day..."
"Of course we'll come! See you then!"

On Monday I texted Nancy.
We haven't met up in a while because both of us were really busy, so we only texted eachother updates about our day every night.
I made sure to leave out any details involving Stray Kids, that was obviously a sensitive topic for her.
I hugged my family and waved goodbye as they dropped me off at the airport. My brother's school started later so they were sending Nancy and I off to school first, and they would go to Tokyo for a couple of days and then fly home.

As Nancy and I walked through the aiport, she took a deep breath and turned to me.
"Y/n...I'm sorry if I've been acting distant and strange recently..."
I turned to her, "Are you ok?"
She smiled and nodded, "Yeah...I guess...I was being a horrible human being and I was super jealous of you. I just thought it was unfair that not only you got to meet Stray Kids, but you got to spend time with them and you even dated Felix."
"Dated..." I repeated quietly.
She hesitated, "N-No, I meant, dating! Still dating Felix...Um....has he not texted you yet?"
I shook my head sadly, then sighed and turned to her.
"Nancy...I don't blame you at all. I was being a horrible friend by barely making time for you and spending it all with Felix. I'm really sorry. Your feelings are completely justified." I smiled at her and she smiled back.
The air was a lot less tense after that, we had come especially early to the airport because Nancy wanted to go shopping. Apparently she still had too much money left and would feel guilty if she went to school without spending it.
Crazy rich asians bruh.
We sat down in front of our gate with food and waited for boarding to start.
"Y/n!"
I turned around and saw Jeongin waving at me. All the guys were dressed extremely casually and were wearing either caps, sunglasses, masks or all of the above.
Good thing there weren't many people in the airport.
I jumped up, scanning each of them, but there was one missing.
My eyes dulled. I smiled and hugged each of the guys.
"Come back to Seoul as soon as you can:)" Chan said, squeezing me hard.
"Of course:))" I replied.
"Also," Jisung came closer, "we're going on a tour in the US in a month actually."
My eyes widened.
"Shhhhh, no one's supposed to know..." Jisung smiled, we will spend a while around LA so you  better come to our concerts;).
"Hmmm..." I smiled, "will I get free tickets?"
Jisung froze, "well—"
"I'm kidding, I'll go to all your concerts, even the ones out of state."
The members smiled.
"Great, we'll see you soon then." Jeongin smiled awkwardly.
I suddenly remembered Nancy and turned to her, she was looking at us shyly.
"Um guys, this is my best friend, Nancy"
I pulled her up and introduced her.
"Um...hi....I'm a big fan of you...is it ok if we take a photo??"
"Yes of course!" The guys gathered and I took the photo.

We waved goodbye and as they turned to go I grabbed Chan's sleeve.
"...Felix?..."
He looked at me and then down.
"I'm sorry..."
I nodded, holding back my tears. Chan hugged me once more, and they left.
I went to join Nancy in line.
"Hey, can you take care of my things for a bit, I need to use the restroom."
She nodded and I left.
As I turned the corner into the bathroom I felt someone grab me from behind.
I panicked and was about to scream when a hand went over my mouth. My eyes widened as I was turned around and came face to face with Felix.
He looked heartbroken and tired, as if he hadn't slept in ages. With dark circles under his eyes, which were already red and puffy.
As soon as he saw the look of recognition in my eyes, he took his hand away.
I stood there, stunned, with my lip trembling.
He quickly let me go and looked down.
"Y-Y/n..."
I burst into tears and hugged him, sobbing into his shirt.
He hesitated at first but then hugged me back.
I withdrew and slapped him, completely stunning him as he looked at me wide-eyed.
"Well...I guess I deserved that." he said sadly while rubbing his cheek.
"Where the fuck have you been?!!!!" I screamed at him, making people stare.
"Shhh, I-I'm so so sorry. The agency, they took my phone away to make sure I have no distractions. I was never allowed outside other than to go to practice, they even told the guys to minimize their interactions with me if they wanted the group to stay intact..." he sighed and ran his hand through his hair.
"I understand that you probably hate me right now. I'm a horrible boyfriend. Ignoring you for weeks...I guess after a while I thought that it would be for the best if you didn't see me, I thought you hated me, and I was selfish, I didn't want to see you look at me that way, so...I just...accepted your hate from afar...After the scandal died down, I tried to go out and see you, but...I guess manager knew that I'd try to do that because there were guards outside our dorm....When I found out about your flight back home, I...I couldn't take it anymore. I begged manager to let me go see you...and finally convinced him...So...now I'm here."
He looked at me hesitantly.
"So are we breaking up?" I asked sadly.
His eyes widened, "No! N-No, unless....if that's what you want..."
I grabbed his hand and he looked up, "No...that's not what I want."
He smiled shyly at me. "Also...Y/n....I've been thinking about this for a while.....and I realized that the easiest way out of this situation....is to drop my career. And....I think I'm ready to do that. If it's for you."
My eyes widened in shock.