The End to our Beginning

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Hey guys, I decided to upload another part today because I couldn't contain myself. I've really enjoyed writing this story so far so I hope you guys enjoy!

BTW I picture Gray Jones as (Alex Pettyfer)

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Nate's P.O.V

I walk down the hallway slowly. I've been dreading clinicals for the past week, not because I hate them but because of a certain blonde I might run in to. Honestly I might as well transfer because if I don't, i'll  continue making the same mistakes over and over.

I reach the entrance of the exam room where our mentor teaches us about how to save lives. At this moment i'd like to be the one unconscious being saved. I try to keep my head down as I walk over to my seat but it's too late, she spotted me. I can feel her green eyes staring and me making me feel extremely uncomfortable. 

My mind decides to add in a snarky comment 'well that's your fault. Isn't it Nate?' 

God I hate that guy. Although he isn't wrong, I should've never made the mistakes I did and there's absolutely no excuse. Oak and I were getting married for gods sakes and I couldn't keep it in my pants long enough for it to happen.

I've spent most of the past month stressed out trying to hide this secret. God I want to tell her so bad. I want to tell her how sorry I am and how my guilt is killing me. I've loved Oak since I was young enough to remember. Her big brown eyes and gleaming smile always got the best of me, making me fall for her even more, everyday.

Today was the day. I was going to talk with Vanessa and tell her to leave me alone and then hopefully work my way up to telling Oak. I just needed her to believe it wasn't going to happen again. I knew if I told her right away she wouldn't believe that and would most likely leave.

I couldn't stand the thought of it. 

I realized I had zoned out when Dr. Randy calls my name, "Mr. Young, care to tell us what precautions to take when your patient is going into cardiac arrest?" I knew the answer to this question but didn't care for all the stares I was getting from those around me.

"Yes Dr. Randy, first you would begin with defibrillation, leading into tracheal intubation-" i'm cut off before I can finish my answer, "good, I get it." He was a very impatient man, ironic huh.

The rest of clinicals consisted on practicing the steps of cardiac arrest and then finally getting released to go home. I decide to call Oak and tell her i'm not going to be home for dinner. I need to talk to Vanessa and finally get all of this settled once and for all. The phone rings for a while before she answers.

"Hey sweetie, how was your day?" she asks sounding drained. I smile, instantly excited by the sound of her voice. She's been working so hard. 

"Actually that's what I was calling about, I don't think I'll be able to make it home for dinner. Clinicals are running longer than usual." I say with guilt seeping through, I hope she doesn't notice.

"Aw okay well I guess i'll be the one benefiting from the make up meal I was going to make you tonight. You know for burning the bagels?" She responds, obviously disappointed. Little does she know, I'm doing what i'm doing to stop hurting her. I have to sort this out our else I might lose her forever.

"I'm sorry hun I wish I could be there. Trust me i'm ready to get home and pass out for the rest of the night." I say trying to run the conversation along. Vanessa comes up to me saying my name and gesturing. I really hope she didn't hear that.

"Okay well get home as soon as possible. I miss you." She says not hearing the voice. Thank god.

"I will" I say, pausing for a moment "I love you" and then I quickly hang up, sending a glare towards Vanessa.