NOT All We See Is TRUE

Chapter Twenty One

Xianna's pov

There was a long pause, I'm debating if I should tell her or not. I don't know if I'm ready or not. I want her to know but at the same time ayoko. Ewan, ang gulo. Before I can speak, she spoke.

"Grace is my ex-girlfriend. We dated for three years. She's a nice girl, very sweet. She was my first love and the only woman who can cope up with my behavior. Our relationship was amazing, but of course we argue about simple things too but she's the one who always says sorry even though it's not her fault. She always understands me and always there for me. " She pauses and puts her chin on my shoulder while she's hugging me from behind. I was waiting for her to speak again but she never did.

"So why did the two of you broke up? She sounds amazing. " Hindi ko na mapigilang mag tanong.

"I guess I was not enough. She wants to be intimate with me but I was not ready back then. I told her that if she really love me then she will wait until I'm ready. She said she will but she's becoming cold as the days pass by. It was our third year anniversary I was planning a surprise for her. I think that it was the best time for me to give her what she wants. Alam ko magiging masaya siya and all I want is for her to be happy. I was driving home from work to our apartment. I bought her favorite flowers and chocolates. I even bought her a customized necklace which had our names engraved on it." Tumigil siya at marahang hinalikan ang pisnge ko. I felt a wet droplets fall to my shoulder and I know what it is. Victoria is crying.

"I open the door at ako pa ang nasurprise sa nakita ko. " She laughs dryly. I held her hands on my stomach tighter.

"She was naked on top of someone. Enjoying the best time of her life, she didn't even notice me standing there and watching them. I dropped the things that I'm holding causing her head to snap in my direction. She quickly got up and wrapped herself in a blanket. I saw the man smile at me and didn't even try to hide. " She said through gritted teeth. I can feel the pain by the way she speaks.

"I was so angry and I don't know what to do. I lash out, throw things, making a big mess. She's standing there terrified. She was trying to stop me but I push her away. Then the man spoke that made my blood boil to the highest point and did something that I didn't regret....but I know it was wrong. " She stops to wipe her tears. I turn around and cupped her face. I wipe her tears and caress her cheek softly.

"I... I... I stab him. I can hear his screams and Grace was pulling me off of him but I didn't budge. I stab him until he passed out. I snap out when I heard the sirens. I looked at my hands in horror. I stab someone and...... " Humikbi siya at isiniksik ang mukha sa leeg ko. I pat her hair, soothing her.

"I killed him Xianna. I killed him. " At mas lalo pang lumakas ang iyak niya.

"I'm a murderer. " She said and pull away trying to get away from me but I held her firmly.

"No you're not. " Saad ko at niyakap siya ng mahigpit.

"Yes, I am. I killed someone. " She said still crying. I let her cry until she calms down.

"I understand if you don't want to be with me anymore. After all no one wants to be with a murderer." Saad niya at umalis sa pag kakayakap ko. She walk towards the door pero pinigilan ko siya bago pa siya makalabas.

"It's fine... It's all in the past. I want to be with you. Okay? You are not a murderer. " I said and crashed my lips to hers gently.

"I'm not going anywhere. I'll be here for you. " I said and hug her. She hugs me back.

"Promise? " I heard her mumble in my neck.

"Yes, I promise. "

She nods and I pull her to the bed. Pinahiga ko siya at humiga din sa tabi niya. She put her head on my chest and I started playing with her red hair.