Lost With Myself

Chapter Three

*Clara's POV*

I let out a loud sigh as i entered mine and Kevin's room. Another dinner that entered up unsuccessful. I really wanted to build our relationship but the more i tried the higher she raised her walls. Sometimes i wished i could be open and tell her my reasons for leaving the way i did but i know better not to. Some issues are better left unsettled.

"Stop overthinking it dear. Everything's going to get better." Kevin's words managed to bring me out of my trance

"I know but when? I'm starting to lose hope"

"You cant. I mean she just got here. Let's give it sometime and if it doesn't work, we'll look for  a way around it" i just hoped that everything would work out for the best. In the end i decided it was best to just go to bed and let nature take its course. I mean it can't be that bad.

*Jade's POV*

It's been about a week since my first day and its been fine. I still see those guys but I keep to myself. Just one thing though, this feeling that I have that someone's watching but I just brush it off

I close my locker after picking out my books and see the girl that I saw crying the other day or at least I think it is. I didn't get to see her face well. "Hi, i wanted to say sorry for how rude i was the other day. That's if you remember"

"oh don't worry about that. It was probably a bad day for you"I say. "Yeah not really my favorite"she mumbles.

I decide to start with some introduction"well, i'm Jade and you are?

"I'm Ashley and I know due to your encounter with Bryan. Tough though."

 At this point the bell rings and we start making our way back to class. Turns out, we both had our first lessons together."So that's his name Bryan and who exactly is he?" I ask out of curiosity. 

"shut up, you mean you don't know him?"she asks with a little bit too much of exaggeration."First, i just moved here and second if i did i'm not sure i would be asking you then would i?"

We get closer to class and decide its best to talk later. Soon enough my first set of classes roll by and it was lunch time. I planned on listening to music in an empty class as i wasn't much hungry but then i saw Ashley headed this way and i sighed knowing that my plans were going to change.

"so I guess our talk was cut short this morning"she said."yeah, i guess so"

"let's talk about it over lunch". I really wanted to say no but I guess this was the start of a new friendship and well lets say I didn't want it to start of roughly." Yeah,lets go" i agree

"So as I was saying Bryan and his group of friends are called captains. They are literally the captains of every cool team and they run this school"she says . And i have the say, didn't expect  that. sure enough it was obvious that they were  popular but i though..... never mind."I didn't know"

"Yeah,Bryan is the captain for football,Blake for baseball, Zack for soccer,Jake is captain for the swim team and Liam for  basketball"

"So i guess that's why they are popular but that doesn't explain why they have their way with teachers too"i say."They are the richest kids in school and their parents kinda control the school board. so I'm pretty sure no teacher wants to lose their jobs"

"Oh, so do they kinda have a female version of this?". I saw Ashley slightly tense beside me."I em.. I don't know if they do but if they did it would probably the cheerleading team"most of it was said to herself than to me.

now that i looked at her she really was fit for a cheerleaders description.Dyed blonde hair,perfectly tanned skin. She was skinny with an average girl height. Chanel earrings with a perfect make up.

"Let's stop talking about it for now ". I said."Do you like music?"

"Yeah who doesn't? But i it's quite shallow. Just listening for fun and you?she asked."i'm quite deep"

We sat on two empty seats near the corner.All this while i still felt i was being watched.I turned to see a pair of blue eyes staring into my brown hazel ones. He was sitting with Bryan so he might have been one of the captains but which one?As if on impulse, Bryan turned to glare at me but was pulled back by one of the girls talking to him. The look on her face should have left a mark.I turned back to Ash who was now talking about a fashion exhibition this week and clearly hadn't noticed that i was absentminded cause fashion really wasn't my line of expertise.

We later agreed to go check it out this saturday. At least she gave me something to do instead of sitting home with Clara. The bell rang and we left the cafeteria for our classes but stopped. one of the cheerleaders passing by whispered something to Ash making her frown and look me in direction after which they walked away.At this point she was almost in tears and i really didn't know what to do or say considering that fact that i'm the worst with emotions. She walked away without another word said. I knew she was pretty open and that i could ask her later on but i decided not to say anything until she brought up the topic herself.

The last bell rang and i signalling that school was over and i walked out to see Ash standing by my BMW M2."Hi Ash, how did you know it was mine?"I asked."I just guessed and thankfully i was right".I knew she was hiding something the truth but i didn't prop any further.

She let out a loud sigh and said"i'm sorry for walking away the way i did today.it wasn't right"

"Don't worry about it but do you mind if i ask what happened earlier" and with that she let another sigh escape her lips"They are, i mean were my friends. We were all part of the cheerleading squad but i started slacking off due to personal reasons but they refused to understand and eventually i lost my post as captain"

"okay,i get it but are they always mean?"i said

"well not all of them are like that. There is Brittany the new captain,Arianna and Taylor. They're cool.I guess the rest just want to maintain their place on a social ladder"she replies

"okay but dont let what they think of you get to you.You are better than that and society should love you for that"

"Thanks and i think i'll get going". With that we exchanged numbers and she walked off to her car and i drove away.

No one was home when i got there so i showered, dressed and and did my assignment. As i was  about to head done to eat dinner alone, a got a text from an unknown number

"Hi. this is Ash. This is my contact"

"oh okay"

"you still up for Saturday?I promise it would be a blast."

"Yeah, i'm still up for it"

"talk to you tomorrow" and with that i turned off my phone. I ended up having dinner alone as they had still not returned.Just as i was about to turn in for the night, they returned. I didn't make it all the way downstairs so they didn't see me and with that i returned to my room.

A few minuted later a heard a knock on my door and Clara entered. She sat beside my bed and thinking i was asleep,tapped me."Em Jade can we talk?"

"Yeah about what exactly?"

"Some friends are of ours invited us to dinner and we wanted you to meet them this Saturday"

"I'd love to but i have plans for Saturday"

"Okay what about next week i'm sure you can make it to their 25th anniversary"She seemed really interested in me meeting these people and with that i said okay and she left.

Some part of me was gradually warming up to her and i knew deep down i still missed her but that was what made it more painful

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