S H E

You need to forget.

There's one thing mum tells me
When I tell her about my depression
She tells me to forget
And I know she knows it's not simple
Trying to war with a powerful beast
All on your own
The darkness never played fair
Now did it?
But she urges me to anyway
And I'm grateful for that
So grateful that I wish to tell her
That the rock she's been in my life
Constantly there
When I needed a break
Have you ever had someone care
So much for you
That she reads you like an open book
And I have faults too
I should try to stay with people more
But I can't help it
Its in my system
To isolate
Self destruct
I feel like a computer program
The code's been written already
I have no choice in the matter
All I can do is execute
It's sad
Dramatic even
But what do you do
When you've forgotten how to fall upwards?
Shouldn't it be so simple?
I mean humans are social creatures
They thrive under company
I should be able to drive towards it
But I feel rogue
The need to stay away sickens me
It travels all over me
Like aphrodisiac
I'm hung up on it
Addicted like a junkie
And I can't stop myself from pushing people away
So tell how am I supposed to relate
To the parties and parties and parties you throw
To the huge number of friends you have
To all these fake high fives beside you?