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Why did you come back?

I like the way your eyes shine
The brown pools resting on your marvelous face a work of art
The lips
Sinfully soft
And your personality to match kills it all
That's just an ounce of the words
You used to lure me into your trap
And I fell
Lord knows how bad I did
I was young and naive
And you were my first
And the sweet nothings whispered into my ear
Went straight for my heart
I'm so fucking stupid
But what does a girl do
Huh?
It's a repeated cycle
With you
Why did you come back?!
Why did you come back to me?
One year later when everything was okay?!

I had forgotten
At least I lied to myself I did
That the tears
That fell on their own back then
Like a leaking faucet
A broken tap
A case of heavy down pour
And you weren't there to fix it?
That you were the cause
Something switched like a flip and I was no longer on the receiving end of infinite compliments
And you?
You were always busy
"I'll talk later babe"
"In the middle of something babe"
"Gotta go babe"
"Need to do something babe"
"Can't talk babe?"

I'm fucking tired of waiting babe!
I'm tired
Of staying here
Waiting for you
To come to your senses
Say you regret it
That you want me back
I want you
No matter how toxic it sounds
But it's how life is right now
Right?
I know all the girls understand
How it feels
Crying for him
As you wait in agonizing insanity
For someone who doesn't Care
And all these damned quotes don't help either do they?
They really don't at all
So why
Why do we still wait
Why do we let them step all over us
Every time
I'm no masochist
But I like the pain that comes with falling
It keeps me grounded
Enough to not try the next time
Guess that's why I stopped after you
Stopped falling
Its a drug
I'm not ready to get addicted to
I overdosed last time
Look at where it got me
A broken heart
A lifeless smile
And bags to match