Operation: sound resolution

Shock sets in

Derek's pov
      I walked quickly through the base towards Harry's office, ignoring all who tried to talk to me, until I arrived bursting through the door "please tell me you've been tracking her" he looked up "Derek, I need you to-" I cut him off "No! I will not calm down when she's in the hands of that rat." He nodded "I know you're worried, I am too but I need you in top condition if we want a chance to get her back." I sighed "please tell me we know where she is?" He spoke "we track them for about an hour before scorpion destroyed her radio, we just have to wait for something to work with" I groaned as I gripped my hair "please keep me updated sir, I want to be on the mission to get her back" he spoke "you will be, but I'm keeping you off the field as much as I can so I limit the chances of you being captured as well given the fact that he's been trying to capture both of you" I nodded "Ja kommandant(yes commander)" as I turned and walked out of his office. I walked towards the dorm as Adriano caught up to me "hey little brother, what's bothering you? Where's Alice?" I looked over causing him to notice the tear streaks in the ash on my face as I replied "scorpion captured her" he gasped "how are you feeling? Are you okay?" I shrugged "tired, anxious, hateful. I couldn't tell you if I'm okay" as I pulled out my Cigar "got a lighter?" He pulled out his zippo "here you are" as I took it from him and sparked the flame lighting the end of my cigar as I took the first relaxing puff. I released the smoke as I spoke "I'm gonna go to the dorm and try to get some sleep, Scorpion said I've got a week so" Adriano asked "and you trust him?" I shook my head no "I don't but he likes fair games, knowing the time of the games makes it more fun for him" he nodded slowly as we arrived at the dorm "do you mind if I hang around your dorm for a while?" I shook my head no "you're always welcome" as I opened the door and saw Aria in her underwear. "Hey Ari, how're you doing?" She looked over "not too badly, why do you look like a sad ghost? Oh hey Adriano" he waved as I took off my gear "I had a building fall on me and Alice got captured so fair to say I should be dead" she looked over as I took off my shirt and dropped my pants before pulling on some of my KSK sweats "you okay?" I shook my head no "I want to die since I failed to protect Alice, I fucked up and she paid for it" Adriano spoke "you know she doesn't blame you, she'd be more upset if you tried saving her and let others die" I spoke "I should've been better, if I wasn't so slow I could've saved everyone" aria replied "we're not superheroes, most of the time we can't save everyone" I nodded slowly "I'm gonna try to get some sleep feel free to watch some movies" they both nodded as I curled up under the blankets and felt more tears roll down my cheeks impacting my pillow,  I wiped my eyes before closing by now stinging eyes. "God I'm so weak" I muttered to my self before yawning hearing the other two yawn as my eyelids grew to be weighted by concrete. I fell asleep quite quickly after closing my eyes, expecting to see the same nightmare as usual but getting a different experience this time. I was walking through a Black Forest, it was pitch black with green lines on the tree trunks, I looked around trying to see past the void as I shouldered my g36, an bolt of unease shot up my spine as I walked through the silent forest. I checked around random trees, just trying to find my way through the forest with no signs or hints. I walked through a bush when I saw a small bit of light in the distance, I started running towards it searching for any sense of familiarity as I burst through the tree line. Suddenly the suffocating forest opened up into a clearing, I noticed an impossibly tall figure in a silver dress with obsidian skin. I slowly and nervously walked towards the figure keeping my rifle trained on them when suddenly my rifle wasn't in my hands anymore, I looked around frantically as it felt like my only protection was stripped away, the figure spoke for the first time since I laid eyes on her "be calm, you will not be hurt here" her voice carried a powerful regal tone as I stilled. I looked up at the towering figure "where am I? Who are you? What's going on? What is this place?" Her chuckle radiated around me as her mouth remained still "you're nowhere. I'm the one who created you, we're having a talk. This place is the world between" I only grew more confused as I saw a river of pearlescent white tears roll down her cheek from her golden eyes "I made you, do you know that?" I thought about it, something about the image felt right so I nodded causing her to speak again pain and horror being present in her tone "I can hear your thoughts, so conflicted, so hateful. Why do you hate how I made you?" I looked down suddenly feeling overwhelmingly bad "it doesn't feel like I do anything right, or that I make anyone's life better. I don't feel connected to the world, I don't feel the happiness or the excitement of being alive, only the sadness and darkness. I feel like I've failed my parents and my friends, I don't feel like I matter" her voice radiated around me but her mouth remained still as the tears still rolling down her cheeks "My child, you matter far more than you know. I made you perfectly, you're the exact way I wanted you to be. Don't break my heart by trying to destroy yourself, it pains my feeble heart each time I see it" I looked down "I'll try" I looked up at her "why are we talking? Why me? What's so special about me?" She spoke "that's a conversation for another time, you must go before it is too late" I replied "too late? Too late for what? What do I have to do?" She stilled as I bolted upright in my bed breathing heavily. Aria looked over clearly worried as I tried to steady my heart rate and stop hyperventilating what the fuck was that?! Why did it feel so real?! Who was that woman?! I heard Aria "hey, hey Derek look at me, what's got you all freaked out?" I tried talking but couldn't as I was still breathing heavily. It took a couple minutes before my breathing steadied and Aria asked again "what's got you all worked up?" I spoke "I had the weirdest dream, it felt so real, I don't even know how to explain it" she nodded slowly "what happened in the dream" I told her "I was walking through a pitch Black Forest and then I got into a cleaning and there was an impossibly tall woman and she talked to me and it was so confusing but it felt so real but there's no way it could've been real" Aria spoke "hey, hey, calm down you're rambling. It sounds like you talked with someone important" I held my head "I don't know what the fuck just happened but it freaked me out" she replied "why don't you go talk to Harry about it, he's better at helping people through this stuff then me" I looked over "how long was I out?" She spoke "maybe 45 minutes, an hour at most" I nodded "please don't tell anyone about my dream" she gave a smile "you're secret is safe, don't worry" I extended my fist as she gave me a fist bump "thank Ari, I'm gonna go talk to Harry" she spoke "don't be too long our shows about to start" I laughed and walked out the door before turning and heading to Harry's office. It was a short walk with me being mostly stuck in my head until I arrived outside the office, I took a deep breath before I knocked. I faintly heard "come in" as I gripped the door and pushed it open, "hello sir" he smiled "hi derek, I wasn't expecting to see you so soon. Anything wrong?" I spoke "I uh, I need some help making sense of something" he put down the file he was holding and turned so he was facing me "sit, sit, lay it on me. What do you need help with?" I sat down "I had a really, really weird dream and it's messing with me" he nodded "what was the dream?" I told him everything I could remember to which he replied "that certainly is an odd dream" I spoke "it felt so real, like I was actually there talking with this person, it freaked me out" he asked "are you religious by any chance?" I shook my head no "I believe there's a higher power or multiple but I don't belong to a religion no" he nodded before replying "I believe what happened in your dream is a manifestation of everything you wish someone told you, everything your mental issues and struggles won't let you believe. I think your brain made up a being that told you everything you subconsciously wanted to hear" I asked "why did my mind create a being that looked like that? I've never even seen drawings of someone like that" he spoke "I couldn't tell you that, but what I can tell you is it's a coping mechanism, I understand you haven't received a letter from your parents in a while" I nodded confirming the observation as he spoke "I believe the being in your dream was a representative interpretation of your parents and it told you everything you wished they told you" I thought about it "that makes sense, thank you for helping Harry" he smiled "it's my job, come back if you need anything else" I waved as I walked to the door. Once I got into the hallway I thought about it I'm not sure if he's right, I've had dreams like that before but they've never felt so real. God I wish everything was clear.