The Power Inside (Kylo Ren)

Thirty Two

Elle quickly walked back to the room; she wanted to get there before Ren did. Unfortunately, he was already there when she opened the door. She quickly hid her hand in a pocket and walked passed him. 

"Going somewhere?" he inquired, holding her arm to stop her. 

"Uh just the lavatory." she lied. 

He narrowed his eyes at her and scanned her face, "Okay." 

She walked into the lavatory and closed the door behind her. Elle wanted time to prepare how she was going to tell him about her injury. There was no way to tell Ren without him getting angry, she knew that, but she wanted to be calm about it so that maybe he wouldn't get as angry. 

She took a deep breath and walked back to the common room but Ren had moved to the bedroom. 

"You're acting strange. What did you do?" he asked. 

"Don't get mad." she pleaded as she held out her bandaged hand. 

To her surprised, he just sighed and shook his head. She was confused by his reaction as she expected him to blow up at her. 

"I thought I told you not to do that again." he said bluntly. 

"I can't control it sometimes...plus you can't scold me anyways. You destroy entire rooms when you're mad." Elle argued. 

"Those don't require trips to the medical bay. What did the doctor say?" 

She avoided his intense stare and looked around the room, "Go ask him, I don't remember." 

"Fine." he said as he got up and left the room, going back to his post. 

Elle let out the deep breath that she had been holding in and flopped onto the bed. Even the smallest interactions with others wore her out so she fell asleep quickly. 

A month went by quickly for Elle, meaning she only had one left before it was time. Ren grew distant from her over the course of the month which she assumed was in preparation for when she was gone. Even Dez and TJ were a little more distant. Her hand healed with minimal permanent damage; the only lasting effect was a constant numbness in certain areas of her hand. 

Unfortunately, Alan concluded that there was no other option for Elle. She and Alan couldn't co-exist within her body like she had secretly been hoping. Elle had grown increasingly hesitant to follow through with the entire process for the Supreme Leader but she would never tell anyone that. However, she knew there was no choice but to go through with it so she tried not to think about it. 

"What's wrong Elle?" Dez said, sipping some of her water. 

"I haven't been feeling well lately. I think I'm nervous for...you know." she responded, moving the food around her plate with a spoon.  

"I don't blame you. I'd be scared if I knew exactly when I was going to die." TJ added. 

"TJ!" Dez yelled.

Elle laughed, "It's fine. There's no need to sugar-coat it, Dez."

She huffed, "Fine." 

They all finished their food then went separate ways. Dez and TJ back to work, Elle back to Ren's room. She dreaded seeing him; his face held so much sadness in it lately and it was hard for her to see. She knew it was because of her but there wasn't much she could do. 

"Ren?" she called out, closing the door behind her. 

There was no answer so she figured he wasn't there and went to take a shower. There was a knock on the lavatory door while she was in the shower. 

"Come in, Ren." she yelled out. 

He opened the door and walked in but she couldn't see him through the steam. The shower door opened and he stepped in behind her. His strong arms wrapped around her wet body and held her close to him. He was crying softly but the water hid all evidence. 

"Hey, whats wrong?" she asked. 

"Nothing is wrong." he said, spinning her around to face him. 

Gods he looks so sad.

She pushed some of his wet hair out of his face and hugged him. Elle knew he was lying but didn't want to push it. She had already finished showering but didn't want to leave him; he needed her to be with him right now. 

She kissed his shoulder softly, "Let's clean you up, okay?" 

He stared at her silently then nodded. She pumped some liquid soap into her hand and lathered it into his hair. He leaned down a little to help as Elle was much shorter than him and couldn't quite reach. After rinsing the soap out, she pumped some more into her hand and rubbed it into his chest and arms. 

The suds quickly covered him as her hands glided around his entire body, washing him and lightly massaging his muscles. She could hear faint groans escape his lips every so often in response. Elle noticed his large member starting to grow and made sure not to touch; she'd take care of that outside of the shower. 

After rinsing all of the soap away, she turned off the water and led him out. He started to dry himself off with a towel, Elle doing the same, and stared at her again. She was unaware of his lustful gaze as she aggressively dried her hair with a towel. Ren growled and picked her up, throwing her over his shoulder, and carried her to the bed.