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Chapter 27

Shay's P.O.V

I woke up in the morning, Illan was still asleep I gently pushed off the bed and went to the kitchen. I made coffee in the coffee pot and grabbed a few scones then headed back to the room as I sat on the window seat, he woke up.

"Morning" I greated.

"Hey, , , what time is it?" He asked rubbing his eyes.

"It's time for us to talk." I said.

"It's really early." He said.

"I literally found out you were engage on Wednesday, you've had more than 24 hours and if you don't want to talk about it we should just break up." I said.

He jumped up immediately.

"Babe! As I said we're trying to end it. What do you want to talk about." He asked.

"Why? Why would you propose to her?" He asked.

"Listen we started dating I broke her virginity and in that town either I marry her or she's shamed." He explained.

"What, did you time travel to 1990 or something?" I Spat

"No, they just think differently and the amount of pressure I was under I just said yes, okay?" I asked.

"No it's not okay. Did you forget you took my virginity too? Did you forget that we were together for 3 years before you left? DID YOU FORGET EVEN AFTER YOU CHEATED ON ME I SUCK WITH YOU!? DID YOU FORGET I WAS THERE WHEN YOU'RE FAMILY WENT BROKE!? DID YOU FORGET WHILE YOU WERE SNIFFING UP A STORM I STILL HAD YOUR BACK TRYING TO SAVE AND DEALT WITH THE DISRESPECT!?" I screamed.

"No. I told you so that you know what was going on I could've lied to you and felt with this lowkey but I didn't want to lie to you. Does that not count for anything?" He asked.

"I FUCKING LOVE YOU BRO THERE IS NOTHING ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH THAT WOULD MAKE ME LOVE YOU LESS! I BROKE MYSELF INTO A MILLION FUCKING PIECES TO FIX YOU! DOES THAT COUNT FOR SOMETHING!? DOES IT MATTER HOW I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP FOR MONTHS FOR MONTHS BECAUSE OF YOU! NOTHING AND NO ONE COULD SAY A SINGLE BAD THING ABOUT YOU CAUSE I WOULD FUCK THEM UP. . . Do you understand how much you hurt me!?" I said tears rushing down my face but still holding firm.

"I was using. . . I didn't think straight. Matter of fact I didn't care, I didn't care about you, Illiana or myself. I was selfish. . . I didn't mean to hurt you but I did and I was too high to care." he said in a low tone.

"You probably weren't high when you proposed to her." I said.

"I left her, I told her I couldn't be with her cause I was in love with somebody else. But if you want to me to magically turn back time and undo the engagement, just to fix us then we'll have to break up cause I can't do that. If you want to fix us, it's definitely not going to happen this weekend we'll have to work towards that. List the ball is in your court and if I hurt you to the point that you don't want to be with me then that's my cross to bare." He said.

"I don't know if we can fix us." I said.

"Are we going to try?" He asked.

"I love you too much not to." I answered.

He came towards me, hugged me and kiss my forehead. I cried in his arms. How does my heart feel so safe in the hands that broke it. I laid in bed most of the day. I really just needed my space Illan respected it and hung out with Kyle.

I heard a knock at the door. I stood up to see who it was. It was Ryder.

"What do you want?" I shot.

"I come in piece with sweet white wine" she said showing me the bottle.

"Where's your bottle?" I asked.

"That bad huh. It's okay just wait to seconds." She said skipping out of the room she came back with a hand bag.

"I brought four bottles." She smiled.

"I doubt you wanna talk about it so let's just drink and play music. What do you wanna listen to?" She asked.

"Something slow." I responded.

I grabbed the bottle and took it straight to the head.

"Damn so we're doing it like that?" Ryder said wide eye with two glasses in her hand.

She placed the glasses back in the bag snuggled up right next to me. I don't like Ryder because she playing with my best friend's mind but I'm way too tired to fight.

Illiana and Illan have been my bestfriends since I was a kid because most kids didn't understand that I had to fathers they teased me but they always defend me regardless of the circumstances. Illiana has a bad tendency of shutting me out but I know it's just her anxiety and her abandonment issues. But we've managed to stay together for the longest time.

Illan and I just naturally fell in love with each other and started dating. We were together for like 3 years before his cousin and granny passed away. I was also very close to them but I couldn't focus on myself cause my bestfriend and boyfriend needed me more. After the passing Illiana was Okay-ish and her brother was spiralling. When he overdosed he was shipped of so Illiana technically lost her whole family in a blink of an eye. Then she grew distant and kinda depressed. So I did have a problem with some girl coming and fucking up something that was going to fix itself naturally.

Right now though I had my own heartbreak to deal with.

I drank and drank and drank. I bursted out in tears and a second later Illiana came into the room.

"WHAT HAPPENED!?" She said.

"I think it has something to do with your brother." Ryder answered.

"Can... you g-give, us a m-minute" I asked.

Ryder left the room with zero hesitation.

"Is this about Catalina?" Illiana asked.

I nodded. I think she could tell that I didn't want to talk she just hugged and let me sob.