Strong (Zerrie FanFiction)

Chapter 15

A/N: Here's another update. I've been busy updating my other book, but I've just finished it so this is my top priority. I'm working up to at least fifty chapters. I hope you guys understand why I've been absent and haven't been actively updating. Thanks for being patient. 

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Perrie's Pov

I beamed with joy, as I set my duffel bag on the leather couch that we had acquired from a nearby furniture store. 

I had been admitted out of the hospital once I had finished the multiple blood tests and scans. 

"How does it feel to be out of that dreaded place?" Jesy asked, coming out from behind me. 

"Wonderful." I spoke, and quickly plopped down on the couch, resting my head on one out of two couch arms. 

"I'm gonna make us all a cup of tea, whilst you girls just rest for a bit. Yeah?" Jade asked, entering the house. 

We all agreed, and we took our places on our selected areas. 

"Once Jade gets back, we need to talk." Jesy spoke, making me sit up straight. 

"Why? What's happened?" I asked, curiously. 

"We'll talk about that, quite soon." Leigh consoled and I folded my hands, anxiously. 

"Tea's all ready." Jade spoke, coming into the den with a tea kernel and 4 mugs in her hand. 

"Thank you." We all said, in unison. 

I reached for the ceramic mug, in which had my name written on the rim. 

"So, what's to talk about?" I asked, pouring tea into my cup along with some milk and sugar. 

Jade and Jesy exchanged a pointed look, and soonly faced me. 

"It's about you." Jade said, clicking her tongue. "You've gotten us in a fright when we saw you like that."

I looked down, playing with the creases in my palms. 

"Care to explain, if you don't mind us asking." Leigh spoke, taking a sip of the liquid substance. 

I looked up, deciphering whether to tell them about my past, or not. 

"Go on then." Jade spoke, her geordie accent snapped me out of my trance. 

"Look girls, there's something that I haven't told you about." I said, taking a deep breath. 

"What might that be?" Jesy asked, curiousity obviously present in her voice. 

"When I was sixteen, I was depressed." I began, inspecting their facial expressions. "I felt worthless and like there was no point in living. I started to get into the habit of cutting, which relieved the emotional pain that was always fixated inside of me. That's when I began to feel insecure. I started to starve myself and whenever I was forced to wolf down food by my mum, I would regurgitate afterwards. It even got to the point where I wanted to die, so I had almost committed suicide. I had managed to find every pill in my medicine cabinet, and I almost consumed it. If it wasn't for my brother, Jonnie, then I would've been dead. But when my mum found out about everything, she'd take me daily to a therapist being that she'd been to scared to turn me into a mental asylum. I began to slowly improve, turning from the weight of under 70 to about 110. I've slowly began to escalate my life and turn it upside down, making me internally grateful. That's where I've found my passion for singing. I'd use to sing songs about the struggles of my life and music had been my natural cure. I'd completely put cutting to a halt, but when those rumours went up about me cheating on Zayn and when we'd finally broke things off... I felt useless again. I just hated myself, and I just broke down all the walls that I've spent years building up."

"Perrie, I had no idea." Jade spoke, tears evidently willing to spill. 

"No one had. And to think, I was getting better." I said, my voice cracking at every sentence. 

"Pez, We'll help you get through this." Leigh said, standing up and pulling me in for an embrace. 

"Yeah Perrie, We'll always be together and we'll always be here for you." Jade spoke, pulling me in for an embrace, also. 

Jesy followed suit. 

"It's okay ladies. I don't need a pity party." I spoke, breaking away from the hug and standing up. 

"Perrie, it's not like that." Jade said, standing up also. 

"I'm sorry." I apologized, chipping at my nails. "I guess I'm just a little shaken up. Mind me, please." 

They nodded, and continued to sip their tea. 

Just as I was about to take a seat, the door knocked. 

"Who might that be?" I wondered, making my way towards the evident knocking. 

"I'll get it." Jade spoke, quickly rushing to get the door and pushing me aside. 

I rolled my eyes, and made my way towards the den to have banter with the girls. 

"What was that all about?" I asked them, referring to Jade's scene. 

"Don't worry about it." Leigh spoke, looking around. "I think you should rest, and we'll call you when dinner's ready." 

I nodded, and raised an eyebrow in question. 

"Mind, bringing my bag up for me. I'm a little exhausted." I said, standing up. 

"Not at all." Jesy said, and carried my bag to my room in which I took a nap.

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A/N: Haven't updated in a while. Sorry, but who do you think is at the door?