Me and You

One last chance

31st of December.

The New Year's Eve found me in my bed until 6pm. Hadn't sleep at all. My family was worried about me. My only best friend was there with me, in the same bed, giving me strength. It was you and her. No one else.

I knew that my relationship should have been given an end. I was aware of that. I just couldn't. I couldn't throw all these memories away, all these feelings. But the other person did it so easily, he threw everything away with mean words, bad behaviour, treating me like I'm his enemy.

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I broke up with him. I broke up for an hour.

I notified you. I said:"I'm single now, I guess".

After that, you said you like me. I didn't even had the chance to think how things escalated so quickly.

He came back. When he realised the seriousness of the situation, he came back to my world, apologising for everything. He said: "That's the last time I did this to you. I promise."

I had you before, telling me to fix the problem and not to be affected by you. So, I forgave him. I did. I gave him that last opportunity to show me that he did love me at the end of all these, he did care about me.

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I didn't tell you about my decision. Maybe I was affected by the "I like you" you said. I just let you know that I was still working on it with him.

My family and my best friend wasn't happy about my decision. They kept saying: "He doesn't deserve you", "You are more than that".

Well, maybe I was. I just couldn't see it.