Me and You

Thoughts

I didn't sleep that night. My brain was going round and round about my decision. Did I take the right decision? Would I have regretted it? Would he change? I didn't know.

You popped up in mind. I wanted so bad to text you to see if you are alright, if you are mad at me for everything I've done to you. For leaving you. I was mad at myself for doing that to you.

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The next day came. I went to school still thinking about my last decision. I told my hesitation to my friends, they still had the same opinion. "If you are still thinking about it, then something it's not right."

On my way back home in that bus, as I was looking outside the window, I thought for a second my situation. I realised I was never asking for too much, I was just asking the wrong person. 

And maybe people never really change, maybe they marely become the person they were suppressing.

Sometimes people need to go broke and lose the person they thought they loved. 

That's why I had to let me and him go, not only for me but for his sake. I didn't want to be around reminding him of what could've been. 

I know what I have to offer and that I might have been the best thing he ever got to call 'his'. But he wasn't ready. 

So I had to let us go.

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I broke up with him. For real this time. He still couldn't get it but I was so tired of this relationship I just needed to let it go. I explained him what I was feeling, he needed to know. 

He still couldn't believe it. He was trying to convince me that I just need time to clear my head and not to break up with him. What a pity. After all these and he still didn't learn me.

Staying in a relationship just because you love someone is not worth it. Love is not all you need. Respect, reassurance, happines is what you need.

My passion for this relationship disappeared.

My passion for him just left.

You see, feelings fade when people change.