Me and You

Again

23rd of February.

Here I am thinking about what I have done. Here I ended up thinking of you again. Not because you were my way out, but because you never left  my mind.

I was re-reading our chat for the 3rd time that day. Everytime I would have heard my heart getting ripped  while I was reaching our last convo. I guess that's what you felt too.

I felt like I've always known you, like I've always been there with you and it's a strange, yet comforting feeling.  

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I couldn't resist. I texted you. I wanted you to know my feelings about you. I did not even hesitate for a little, I just wrote everything and sent it.

I told you that I've been thinking of you all day long, that I couldn't get you out of my mind those almost 2 months. And the most important, I apologised to you for my way of leaving you.

I felt like I told you everything with one breath. When I rethought of what I did, I texted you immediately and told you that it would have been okay if you don't want to answer and that it would have been understandable.

You know, on the one hand I was afraid of not getting the answer I designed in my head and on the other I was afraid that you didn't want to talk to me at all.

After 3 hours-which felt like an eternity, I got an answer. 

You let me know that it's not the fact that you didn't want to talk with me but you didn't have anything to say. I guess you were mad at me and that was completely fair. Then, I told you that just by texting me back me, it meant a lot to me. 

"The things you say you are feeling don't keep up with your last reaction in our conversation." you said and that's when it became obvious that you were sullen.

Oh baby, trust me I knew that I messed up and I wish you could have seen how much I wanted to start my relationship over with you.

You asked me what happened and then I opened up my soul for you again. 

For the second and most beautiful since now time.