Me and You

And this time

2 days later.

After 48 hours and I had him begging me to not leave. Maybe that reason wasn't a serious reason to leave this relationship. But it was the last sign life was giving me to take the chance and leave.

I really didn't want to leave. I would love to stay and fix things again but it was obvious, nothing would have been the same anymore. 

[...]

I still was thinking about giving him THE last chance. After all, I still had that little hisitation.

I went to school like a zombie. My eyes were burning from crying, my friends were worried about me. I was having a lesson and I was just sitting there crying. He hurt me so bad, I wasn't able to heal myself.

My friends kept saying: "Why do you even think of not leaving him? Look at you, look what he did to you. You are not the same person everyone knew, you are not happy anymore."

Those words were playing in my head every time I thought he could change. Every time I was thinking of giving him a chance. My mind kept reminding me what should I have done.

[...]

Me and him had a serious talk. I was convinced that everything he was telling me was completely true. I was convinced again that he could become a little different, a little better.

Maybe I was affected by the fact that I didn't want it to be over. I still had so much to give to this relationship.

So I did. I did give him that LAST chance again. I did forgive him. Or that's what I thought. 

I made it clear to him that with the most little thing he would have done, I'm gone. Without a word, I would just have left.

He agreed with me. I was thinking that I was saving my relationship by doing this. That was the way I saw it.