Behind the Gloves

Facing the music

"Okay y'all are season is coming close to end it's sad but not to so because the spring will be here before we know it." Jermaine said but Milo kept staring at me and I couldn't focus pictures of Trevor kept replaying and in my mind suddenly I felt sick I ran to the restroom."

"Y'all need- Seven?! Seven?! Tia go check on her." Tia was already gone.
"Seven which stall-." She heard my loud throwing up. She walled right in pulling my hair up.

"amiga que pasa?" Tia said her voice sounded really sympathetic but I couldn't tell her.This all on me.
"Thanks Tia can you to my locker and get." She handed me my toothbrush and toothpaste.
"Here now hurry up and brush."

As I finished I started to cry I don't why my tears just started and I couldn't stop them but Tia comforted me the whole time.
"Come on let's get you home."

"I'm fine I want to stay for practice."
She nodded looking very concerned but we walked out and Kai hugged me tightly.

"I heard crying now who I gotta shoot." He said looking to serious with a deep voice and I laughed with my eyebrows raised.

"Shoot? You ain't got no gun."
"Well I got these." He started punching the air almost falling on his butt it was too funny I forgot everything that happened.

After practice Jermaine called me to his office. I knocked on the door.
"Shut it and take a seat."

"Wow did I get sent to the principal?"

"Okay so you feel better?"
"Im fine."

"I realize your more aggressive in the ring when your not okay it's almost like drugs for you."
"What are you saying."

"Whatever is going on talk about stop holding it in it's a dangerous game your playing Seven your gonna hurt someone or yourself which is even worst." His words hit me cause it was the truth but what does he know.

"Your just mad you lost to a girl."
"Seven it's not about me right now. You wouldn't be the first girl I lost to either so stop." He said more stern.
"Kick me off the team! Your fucking beating around the bush and shit what is it? The fuck I thought fuck you and this shit I'm done!"

Jermaine
She slammed my door so hard the wood split. Seven never hardly cusses and she's so professional what happened what's happening to her.
"Hello?"
"You notice anything with Seven."
"I got an Idea I can't tell what's wrong with her but you can help me."
"Okay.alright.got.it" I hung up. I hope that what I think happened didn't because nobody deserves that.

7
I haven't gone back to the gym for boxing and I don't plan going back I don't care if they take my scholarship either.

Last week I got an email from a retreat spot and I need it so bad it's five days long but I will take it.
It's a four-hour drive.

"Seven can I come in." Jamal said.
"Whatever." I said packing my bag.
"Did you really quit the team?"
"Do you really care Jamal what do you want?" He grabbed my arm and turned me around.

"You to be happy Seven with big College dreams not Seven who gives up and go cause her ex shoes up."
"Dont fucking touch me what do you know about my ex when your girl probably suck everyone else dick but yours." His smile dropped and looked me in the eyes.

"Seven don't don't do that." He said now looking down.

"Do what tell you the truth? It was cute at first but Jamal please mind your business and go check on your girl because that's not me." I he shut me door Jamal was always kind but I don't need any more drama besides my own.

I arrived at the rented house that was apart of this five day resort it was beautiful in the inside and out.
I went straight to sleep when I got there.

I woke up taking a long bath and shower then changing into my clothes I did my hair and hygiene and headed out.

'The group starts at 3:00' said the notification on my phone.
I got some ice cream from this place called Creamistry how cute and good it was.

After shopping and lunch it was 2:00
I went back home and put my stuff away I walked out side to see all my tiers low.

"What the heck!what am I gonna do?"

I called an Uber I really don't like them and drove to the group.

I walked in to a circle of girls sitting down. And took a seat in the empty chair.

"Welcome ladies I'm Diane this is my third year with working with the Survivors Project." what the hell?

"You are all strong you may not feel that but to be sitting here continuing. To talk about a terrible thing that was done to you means a lot. Your not only sharing your story but helping someone else in this room share there story and pull them slowly out of dark place."
She talked and I listened I was going to walk out but I thought about what she said. I want to be strong for my family. Even for my birth mom to rub it in her face. I want to show that to whoever sent me here forced me here I can do it.

"I see you don't have a name card?" She said causing everyone to look. the woman and girls around me look strong for sure some eyes red but strong.

"Im Seven."

"Hi Seven". They all said which was a little weird but I wasn't paying attention so.

"Tell us about you Seven."
"Well, I'm 19 I'm a freshman in college I work two jobs got two moms there not together but it's long story. I'm boxer since 10. I started boxing when my real mom left but I got I got an even better one."

"Wow." Some girl and Diane said
"I was 17- 18 when my boyfriend and his friends raped me I remember waking up feeling sore not remembering bleeding not on my cycle and not wanting to get up. When I got up I went to the mail to see pictures of my naked body my naked body unconscious.

My ex-boyfriends friends are dead but he's still alive I never let him raping get to me until now when he started stalking me trying to get a another chance I realized he took something ill never get back."
"What did he take." a girl asked.

"He took my virginty but he also took my happiness." The other girl said.

"You can get that back." Diane said.
"I just feel like iv been faking it this whole time because two months after the second rape I didn't even care I moved on without saying anything I wasn't gonna be a victim Im alive." Everyone clapped.
"Thats right Seven your a survivor and everyone is different when it comes to it you aren't less of a women for not crying or being angry."

"Oh I'm angry. But your right I survived his hits and being raped I just wished he knew what he did was wrong I wonder if Im the only one. Then I think I'm glad it was me other than someone else." I broke down crying. "If I wasn't being so nonchalant about it mabey he would-"

"Seven don't you ever blame your self ever!"

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