Punchbag - Calum Hood (5sos) Alternate Universe [ON HOLD]

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My mum was really mad on the phone. Really, really mad. I was scared as to what she was going to say to me, because it was kind of obvious that her grounding me and shouting at me wasn't working. My chest was tight as I stood in front of my door. I went to open it but someone in the other side beat me to it. Mum.

"Calum Thomas Hood," she hissed. "What on earth do you think you're doing? You're grounded!"

"I-" I began, but mum grabbed me by my collar and dragged me into the house.

"I'm sick of this," she said, her voice cracking. "I'm sick of it. Why can't I control you? You were never any bother until this damn exclusion. What am I doing wrong?"

I presumed she was talking to herself, and that they were all rhetorical questions, so I kept my mouth shut.

"I don't understand you, Calum. Why are you so angry? What's wrong with you? Talk to me, darling, I don't know what's going on anymore," she sighed and sat down on the sofa.

"I-" I began, but she cut me off.

"No, Calum, I need you to listen to me. I'm sick of you treating me like I don't matter, like I don't have feelings. Because I do, Calum, and I hate the fact you've turned into a heartless boy, because that's not you. You're not who you're pretending to be Calum. Why don't you just drop the act?" mum had tears rolling down her cheeks.

"I-I'm not... acting," I said, trying to get my head around the fact my mother basically told me I had a repelling personality and it wasn't me.

"Calum," mum grabbed my hand. "Darling, I love you. But I won't sit around and be your verbal punchbag, ok? I won't let anyone be your verbal punchbag. I love you Calum, I don't want you to reck all the relationships you've spent almost 18 years building up."

"It's not my fault, mum," I swallowed hard. "I can't help it. It's just I can't control it anymore. It's not my fault..."

"I want you to finish school as soon as possible," mum said abruptly. "Then I'm going to send you over to America, to live with your father. I'm sorry Calum, but you need s fresh start."

"W-what?" I said in disbelief. This can't be happening? I know I should've been thinking about Luke, and Michael, and maybe even Ashton, but the only person running through my mind right now was Cassidy Cassidy Cassidy.

"You heard me," mum wiped her eyes. "This is really bloody hard for me, Cal, but I love you and I'm not going to let you waste your life away here, it's not doing you any good. This is your last chance and I'm not letting it go to waste. Your teachers always said you had the willpower to change the world. Whatever happened to that?"

Mum sighed deeply and grabbed her coat from the sofa. "I'm going... out, okay? I want you cleared up and don't you even think about going out. You need to be better for when I come back; I'm bringing someone I want you to meet."

She walked out of the door and that's when I broke down, sobbing. All I could think was that I was a disappointment to my own mother, that she wanted me carted off to another country because I was too much of a handful. I let it all go then, I just collapsed onto the floor. I'd never felt so broken in my entire fucking life. All the shit I've been through, and I'd never felt this low.

I got up and began slowly making my way up the stairs. I collapsed again halfway up and just cried for what felt like ages but was probably only five minutes. My breathing was irregular but I managed to heave myself up the rest of the steps and into the bathroom.

I stood in front of the mirror and stared at myself. I may as well have worthless tattooed all over me. My own mother doesn't want me. I started crying again then, and I turned away from the mirror because it was so fucking painful to look at myself breaking down. I grabbed some toilet roll and scrubbed my eyes fiercely, making them even redder than they were before. I sat down on the toilet and just stared at everything, for a while.

I'd never hated life, or myself, so much, ever. I got up slowly and realized almost an hour had passed since mum had left. I went into my room and changed into something slightly more respectable. I had a pretty obvious idea as to who mum wanted me to meet, and I'd obviously need to impress him. Don't want to come across as a psychopath in front of my mum's new boyfriend, do I? No, we wouldn't want that.

My mobile started ringing and I just answered it because I just didn't care at all.

"Hello?" I sniffed.

"Calum?" my dad's voice echoed down the phone. I sighed; I really wasn't in the mood to talk to him, so I just left him on and didn't say a word. "Calum? Calum, you're scaring me? Are you okay?"

I nodded slowly, even though he couldn't see me. I placed the phone down on my bed and sat down next to it and stayed like that for another half hour. My dad stayed, waiting for me to say something, anything, but I didn't.

"Okay, you're obviously not going to answer," dad snapped, finally giving up. "You're so childish Calum, do you know that? And stubborn. They're not good qualities you know, son." He hung up.

My chest was physically aching with how much everyone seemed to fucking hate me. My dad, my mum. I put my head in my pillow and just let it all go, and stayed like that for, probably another hour or so. After that I had a headache and stomach ache and I felt sick from crying so much. I knew mum would be back soon, so I got up with my pounding head and went downstairs. I made myself some coffee and sat on the sofa.

Checking my phone, I realized I'd had missed calls of Cassidy and Luke. I rang Luke first, and he answered really quickly.

"Hey, Cal," he said casually.

I swallowed. "Hey."

"You ok?" I could tell he was doing something else as well as speaking to me. It became evidently clear when he moaned slightly down the line to me, exactly what he was doing.

"Yeah. Are you wanking?" I asked.

"Nope."

"Don't tell me you're having sex," I mumbled. I couldn't believe he was on the phone to me whilst he was having sex. He really does disgust me.

"I'm- oh, go-"

"Lucas!" I shouted. "Stop it! This is revolting!"

"Sorry," he said sheepishly. "I'm just- no baby, one more-"

"I'm giving you five seconds to stop fucking that girl and tell me why you rang, or else I'm hanging up on you," I said seriously.

He chuckled. "Hold on a sec. No, in a minute. No! Stop, get off," he started giggling down the phone.

"For fuck sake, Luke," I was completely done with him.

"Sorry, I've stopped now," he sounded les pre occupied now. "What did you want?"

"Why did you ring me?" I asked.

"I- um, it doesn't matter now," Luke stuttered.

"Okay?" I was confused now. "Right. Anyway, I wanted to tell you-"

"I'm so sorry Cal but I'm gonna have to go, unless you want me to jack off whilst on the phone to you," Luke's apology sounded sincere but I couldn't get over how naturally he'd come out with that.

"For crying out loud. Bye, Luke," I hung up. I quickly got Cassidy's contact up and my phone dialed her number. She took a little longer to pick up.

"Hello?"

"Hi," I said nervously. I don't know why I was nervous. "It's-"

"Calum, can I come to yours?" she asked abruptly.

"Um, sure?"

"Thanks," she hung up, and I stared at my phone. Girls are so fucking complicated.

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