Broken (Jack Gilinsky Fanfiction)

Chapter 12

The rest of the period went by in a blur and next thing I know I was at my locker getting ready to go home. Clarissa had went to her locker to get her things and she had specifically told me to stay free starting tomorrow after school so that we could spend every moment together. I didn't mind that, it just proved that she actually is a true best friend. You must be wondering why not today also? Well it's because I need to meet Alex today after school.

During class, he had texted me saying we could meet up at a Café or something but i rejected it. I wanted to go at his house since his reaction could be anything and I didn't want everyone to know we're breaking up. He has agreed and told me to come over whenever I could. I took out my school bag and slammed my locker shut. As I was walking, I realized it had been a few days since I had thought about or seen Jack. I was quite happy and also...sad about that? Happy because I think I'm finally getting over him and when I move it's gonna be even better even if I have to make new friends and sad because..well, part of me still likes and misses him. I'm not gonna deny it.

I drove home while blasting Ariana Grande's new album 'My Everything'. It had to be her best album yet. I loved her and her music so much. Once I got home I went towards my room since there wasn't anyone I had to greet, meaning my parents weren't home once again. I sighed and plopped down on my bed thinking how I should tell Alex. Should I be direct or show some suspense? Should I say hi first or get right to the point? Ugh! All this thinking is making me hungry.

I got up and walked downstairs to search for some junk food. I was too lazy to make food. Finally I spotted jalapeño chips. My favorite! I took the whole bag and went back to my room and started munching on them while going on my phone, checking social medias. I also texted Alex that I'll be at his house in an hour. I needed time to prepare and all. I really wish he would have understand we still could be friends but I can't expect that much. I can just hope.

After a half hour, I got up to freshen up and go to his house. During this whole half hour I practiced and practiced until I was completely sure I wouldn't mess up. I walked towards my bathroom after getting out some new clothes which consisted of a blue pair of jeans and a simple t-shirt and changed into them. After doing all my essentials I was about to fix my hair when my phone rung. Who could it be? I picked it up and saw it was Alex.

"Hello?" I said.

"Hey baby, I'm sorry for calling right now since you were gonna meet me anyways but I wanted to tell you that we can't meet up today." He said guilty.

I didn't want to make him feel even more guilty. I was kind of disappointed that I couldn't tell him today but I understood. At least he told me before I left.

"It's okay Alex. I totally understand. Just let me know when we can because I really need to talk." I replied. After he told me he will call me to tell me when we can hang out we bid goodbyes and hung up.

What do I do now? I wasted all this time to practice and I didn't even hang out with Clarissa. Life sucks. I changed back into my old clothes and sighed while deciding to do my stupid homework.

After a few hours, I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't wait any longer to tell Alex. I needed to break up with him as soon as possible or else if I tell him last minute he will surely be disappointed that I didn't think about our relationship before. I can just text him. Bad way, I know but I'm really impatient.

'Hey Alex.. I wanted to talk today but you were busy. It was really important so I couldn't help it I need you to know. Here goes nothing...we need to break up. I know this might be unexpected. I have a reason. Please don't hate me. It's because I'm leaving Nebraska and moving to LA. I know it's all of a sudden but I want to start a fresh. I really hope we can still be friends...I'll wait for your reply.'

I wrote it but I now just gotta press send. I can do it. At the count of 3. 1...2...3...Send! I sent it. Oh my god! What if he hates me or ..or I don't know what else could happen but it could that's all I know.

During the whole time, I waited for Alex's reply, scared of what he will say. Will he even want to meet me afterwards or just ignore me. I need to loosen up. I need to smoke. I got off my bed and took out the box from under my bed.

It was 8:36PM and neither my mom or dad were home. I was lucky but sometimes I hated being home alone. I quickly did what I had to do and started smoking. It felt good but I still was a little nervous about Alex's reply.

After a while, when I thought I was completely done. I put the box away making sure to hide it. Even after smoking I was stressed as f*ck! I decided to go to sleep at 9:30 and fell asleep a few minutes later.

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I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing. What time is it?
I tried to ignore it but it kept running. Who could be calling? I looked at my clock, it was 3:35 AM. Ugh! I finally decided to pick it up even if my head was pounding. When I saw the caller ID, I shot up from my bed. Shit! Why would he call at this time? He must be angry.

(A/N: I'm sure you guys know who it is if you're smart;) I'll try to update tomorrow if I can. Thanks for reading!)