Look at Me (I See You)

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(Look at me)
Am I beautiful enough?
(Look at me)
Do I look okay?
(Look at me)
Why aren't you looking?
(Look at me)
Why is no one looking?
(Look at me)
This was all for you
(Look at me)
This is what you wanted, right?
(Look at me)
Please, just this once
(Look at me)
I need you to
Look
at
me

Look at her, dead on the floor
What for?
What more
could she have done?
What more
could she have given to anyone?
One bullet, one gun
Who held it?

No one did, hun
No use playing the blame game
Game's over, what's done is done,
and can't be undone
Either way, the ending's the same

Not it's not, it's not true
How can you be this cruel?
You treated her like a tool
Fires need fuel, and you poured the gasoline

My hands are clean
She died for him

I blame him too
Too stuck in his own mind, blind
to all outside his own existence
Resistant
to her insistence to close the distance
between them, misguided
Her love, one-sided, denial
of his vile guile and wiles
He should be on trial, no doubt about it
but so should you!

NO!

Admit it
you're far from acquitted
You fed the monster in her
I heard
your absurd lies, the prize at the end
No end in sight, a tunnel with no light
Lights on a stage, a cage, of one
An audience of none

I gave her hope

You gave her the end of a rope

I gave her power

Yeah, right, you liar
What sort of power
so fake, comes with
an expiry date
Exchange rate so low
she never bought, only sold
herself, for scraps to sate
the hunger, for fuck's sake

That power did not empower
only drained her by the hour
Drowned screams under the shower
Left her to shiver and cower
in front of the mirror
I tried to warn her
but you were louder, you snake!
Your words sealed her fate
and now it's too late
It's her face, not his, on the pavement

You're not blameless, you know?
She was aimless, with nothing to show
Starving for meaning and love
Love and meaning you couldn't give,
to keep
in her hands forever
So she went looking wherever
for whomever

That's how she found him, so slim
then came crying for me, you see
and forgot all about you, the fool

You're right, that's fair
I wasn't there,
I'll share the burden
of this death, not sudden
but one I saw coming

I was the only one who loved her
the only one who will mourn her
Should've done more for her
Should've listened to her
talked to her
told her to turn away the mirror
held her nearer
assuage the fear in her
helped her see clearer
that true love is not outside
but here inside where there are no lies

Look beyond your shell
and know that I see you

(I see you)
Don't, I'm ugly
(I see you)
Stop lying, there's nothing there!
(I see you)
...Do you?
(I see you)
What do you see?
(I see you)
Is it enough?
(I see you)
The world doesn't
(I see you)
I believe you
(I see you)
I think I see you too
I
see
you


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