Finally found you

eight.

A little bit of a self harm graphic during the first Elizabeth POV so if you don't wanna read it you can skip it.

MICHAEL'S POV (whattt?)

Elizabeth never showed up. I waited for four hours for her to show. This news was very important for her to know.

ELIZABETH'S POV

"Hey Niall?" I whispered as I looked up at him.
"Yeah babe?" he looked down at me and smiled.
"Can I shower again, considering I'm all bloody and disgusting?"
"Y-ye-yeah," he stuttered. "Do you need clothes?"
"Yes, please."
"C'mon," he took my hand and we went upstairs. The guys were still here, but I really needed to shower.
You're fucked up Elizabeth
You don't deserve him
The voices were back.
He's just being a charity
Your life is fucked up
I started shaking and breathing heavily. 'Elizabeth calm down'
Just die
Just give up
You don't deserve anyone
Niall was talking to me, but I wasn't paying attention to him. I was paying attention to the voices.
"Elizabeth?"
"Hmmm, sorry what?"
"Are you okay?" he walked closer to me and wrapped me in a hug. He moved his hands down to my hips and kissed me sweetly on the lips.
"I got you some sweats and a shirt, the towels are in the cabinet in the bathroom and the soaps are all in the shower," he said guiding me to the bathroom. "I'll be downstairs with the boys," he kissed my forehead and walked downstairs.
I got in the shower and saw Niall had a razor in there.
Elizabeth, do it. You are already fucked up enough.
I grabbed his razor and put it in my hands and put force on it so it would break. I broke down as grabbed a little blade. I didn't even bother getting out of my clothes. I needed to do this.
I sat on the floor and put the blade on the top part my wrist.
Just do it. Your worthless.
I slit my wrist once.
C'mon, keep going.
I slit it once more.
Just die.
I turned the blade and pressed it against my vain. I slit it down. I stayed in the shower and just bled my arm out. It felt nice.
Next thing I know all I saw was black.

NIALL'S POV

"Niall, go check on Elizabeth. She's been in there a while," Harry suggested yet demanded.
I walked up there and heard the water still on.
"Elizabeth?" I walked in and saw in the shower, she didn't even bother to take her sports bra and shorts off.
"Oh my god!!! Elizabeth!!!" I saw the blade, my razor pieces, and cuts on Elizabeth's arm. I saw a long cut running down her arm.
Shit. She tried to kill herself. Again. I picked her up and started walking towards the closet to get a towel.
"Elizabeth, Elizabeth stay with me," I said frantically, not sure if that was what I was suppose to do.
"Mom! We have to go to the hospital now!"
"Niall...." her voice was broken, but she was still conscious.
I sprinted down the stairs and met my mom in the car. I grabbed the towel to stop the bleeding.
"Niall, stay in the back with her: keep her conscious Niall." My mom said sternly, "keep talking to her, keep her awake."
I set her in the back of the car with her head on my lap.
"Elizabeth, c'mon Elizabeth please stay with me," I pleaded. "Elizabeth please stay with me."
"Niall," she said in a whispered.
"C'mon babe, we are almost there," I kept saying. "Mom, how much longer?"
"C'mon Elizabeth, please stay. I love you," I said in a whisper towards my mom couldn't hear.
"We are almost- we're here," she said stopping.
I got out of the car and grabbed Elizabeth, I ran inside, trying so hard not to shake her.
"Nurse!!" I shouted frantically not realizing I was crying.
A nurse ran and people came with a stretcher. I set her on the stretcher and watched her get pushed away.
My mom came in and automatically hugged me, she knew how much I liked her. I cried into my moms shoulder until I finally got the guts to talk to the nurse.
"Hello, are you related to Miss. Gonzalez?" the nurse asked me.
"No, I found her laying in my shower with a blade and blood, she stayed at my house because some stuff was going on at home and I let her shower and," tears filled my eyes and I couldn't finish. My mom drew circles on my back, apparently that has calmed me down since I was little.

ELIZABETH'S POV

All I saw was black. My mind was still functioning, but my body wasn't.
I started remembering things.
My dad leaving because of my mom. My 16th birthday party and how my dad showed up to say hi, but I pushed him away because I wanted to see what was going on with my mom. I remember my dad saying that he was gonna see me more often. I never put the pieces together. I never understood.
I heard murmurs and voices. I heard my mother's voice mixed in with Niall's voice mixed in with Jaden's.
"I need my best friend in my life. She can't leave." I heard Jaden cry into someone's shoulder.
"I need my daughter in my life," my mom cried.
I started seeing light.
was I waking up or was I dying?
My eyes fluttered open and I suddenly starting gasping for air.
"She's awake?" someone asked.
I finally caught my breath and looked around.
I saw my mom, Jaden, Mrs. Horan, and the doctor.
"Where's Niall?"
Nobody answered.
"Where's Niall?" I practically yelled.
"Elizabeth!" I saw him standing at the door. He came in, sat next to me on the bed, and pulled me into a hug. He made sure my wrist didn't hit anything, but I didn't care if it did or not. I was in his arms, that's all that mattered.
"Let's let them have a moment, shall we?" Niall's mom suggested.
"Niall, I'm so sorry. I didn't want to, but voices kept telling me I wasn't worth it. I'm sorry I broke your razor, I'll buy you a new one and I'm sorry for putting you through all this and I'm sorry that I'm broken and you can't fix me." I finally broke... well not finally, but I broke.
"Elizabeth, don't be sorry, and I don't care about the razor," he said with a chuckle. "I should be sorry. I should have been upstairs instead of downstairs. I should have know that this would happen after what happened earlier and Elizabeth?"
"Yeah?"
"Please don't attempt again, I can't keep seeing you like this. Please stop, I love you."
"Niall, I just can't stop randomly."
"It won't be random, I'll help you through all of it," he kept pleading.
Next thing I know a guy walked in the door.
"Hello, is this Miss. Gonzalez?"
He hair was bright red and he had a suit on.
"Yes, can I help you?" I asked him.
"Elizabeth, your father died."

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YEET! Well this was emotional for me, I don't know about you but this was emotional. Well, I love y'all and I hope y'all have a fabulous night.