Falling for my kidnapper

Missing Him (pt.2)

So it's been a week now and I'm still not ready to let August come back home, we've already talked about everything over the phone, and fixed our problems but I asked for more time, so I'll have time to myself to get over what he's done to me. But I can't get rid of this feeling that I have, I just really miss him. I've been hanging out with Indy this whole week to try to get him off of my mind, and I've talked about what's going on between us with her, and she's told me about her and Chris' problems switch I tried to help her with, to get my mind off of August more, but I can't. I just miss him.

•Indya•

Omg!!! Chris is getting on my nerves this whole damn week I've been helping Asia because she's been have a rough time with August, just like I am with Chris. Anyways, every time I go to see her, and come back home he's high, and starts some shit with me, and now he thinks I'm cheating on him. This is really pissing me off.....like right now I have to go slap the shit out of him cause he's doing that shit again and just called me out my name.

"Wtf did you just say?" I asked walking up to him

"I said your a cheating as bitch" he said looking down at me

"F*ck you" I said slapping him

"Bitch" he said slapping me back harder then I slapped him

"F*ck you Chris I said kicking him in the leg

"I've never been a cheater,and your the one who's cheated, how dare you accuse me of cheating on you....go to hell" I said running upstairs crying

About 2 hours later, I heard the door open, and I refused to turn around, cause I knew who it was. Then I felt the my side of the bed go down, and a hand on my thigh...I know he's still high, cause he only does that shit when he f*cked up. Anyways, I heard him say something but I couldn't figure out what he said because he was mumbling. When I didn't respond he obviously repeated himself.

"Baby I'm sorry" he said with his head down

"Chris why do you keep putting me through this shit" I asked after sighing deeply

"I don't know Indya" he answered shortly after

"What did I do wrong?" I questioned him while sitting up in the bed

"Look baby I just get really jealous...and after me cheating on you I just feel like your gonna do the same thing, or maybe just leave" he said while rubbing his face

"I'm not gonna do that to you Chris" I said while getting up and crawling over to the back of him, and wrapping my arms around his neck

"I love you and I'm not going anywhere" I said while putting my face into the crook of his neck, then I heard him say: "I love you too". That's when I lifted my head up and I was kissed. After our kiss we hugged and apologized for what we said to each other, then I went back to bed, while Chris took a shower.

•Asia•

I was laying in bed thinking about August, when I got a call, so I answered it without looking at the caller ID.

"Hello?"

"Baby" I heard a deep New Orleans accent come threw my phone, and I already knew it was August

"Yes" I answered

"Wyd?" He asked me sounding bored

"August...the reason for you being away from me for another week is for me to get over everything by myself, but you ain't letting me do that cause you keep calling" I said kinda getting annoyed

"Ok baby" I heard him say after sighing deeply into the phone

Damn that sigh was sexy as hell.

"Bye August" I said about to hang up

"Bye baby I love you " I heard him say, but instead of saying it back I just hung up quickly.

I know ya'll might think that was rude but after all this shit I'm not sure if he does love me, and that was the first time he ever said it, and yes I do love him, but I'm just scared to tell him. I don't want to get hurt again. If I say I love you I really mean it, but with August I feel like he's not in love with me like I'm in love with him, if he is in love with me, he doesn't act like it, and doesn't treat me like he loves me. Anyways, should I just tell him I love you, or should I keep my guards up?