Dreaming of Dhez (Eclipse)

Blue and Voice

Vll.

Were inside the van going  back to. the hotel.

I know the others have lots of questions but I dont want to talk. I just look outside the window.

Yonghwa told the others to stop asking and Im grateful for that.

I cant stop thinking about her.

I know my bandmates are wondering why I 'm like this. I never did tell them why I like her.

I remember,:

It was 2009 when Yonghwa started his work with minami Shineyo. We were left in Japan and was advised by our manager to cope as much as we can.

We were playing in the streets then.

I've never had the problems of takingcare of the boys before because Yonghwa always take care of that. Suddenly evrything was delegated to me. From the songmaking to the schedule and budget.

My mind reeled at that time, coupled with the fact that we are left there.

Yonghwa called almost every night to check and to make sure that we're ok. 

He always advise me to be positive. he gave me a lot of  advise.

He would also fly back from time to time when he is allowed by his busy schedule but then time came that he juist called us twice in three weeks. They have to shoot every day and has no sleep.

We understand and I tried to be strong for Jungshin and Minhyuk.

I never showed them that I was afraid. But I am.

One time after a performance , we went home early. The two kids sleep right away exhausted.

I just look outside the window thinking what to do next. I should call Yonghwa, but i just found out they are shooting non-stop now.

I walked outside to clear my mind.

Just then, i saw a girl. She was playing with the blossoms of the sakura.

The flowers lost their vibrant color because its autumn.

I sat down on the bench and I think about the summer when everything was just carefree.

I do not have any responsibilities back then, I just live and play and ride my bike.

I closed my eyes and replayed that summer.

Then I heard a song. It was the same song that Cherry kept on humming when were under the sakura tree near Tokyo Bay. I started to calm down.

When I opened my eyes, Im surprised that Im the only one there.

But her voice is so clear and her song kept on playing in my mind.

I went home with the resolve to do better and to strive harder.

Everytime I encounter a setback, I think back to that time.

I keep on thinking about her.

What's her name? Will i see her again?

- - - - - - 

The next morning we prepared for the fansigning event. Its held at the Planetarium Starry Cafe in the airport.

A lot of our fans arrived with gifts. You can really feel their love everytime they greet us. Some say thank you for our songs and it really touches our hearts.

I was hoping she' ll come but she didn't.

Jungshin put his arms on my shoulder when he saw that I keep on looking around.

" hyung, youre so obvious .."

" yah, dont mind me.." I purse my lips.

A boice that doesnt go to fansigning events. Is she really a boice ?

" maybe she has something important to do, " said Minhyuk. He really wants to make me feel better so I smiled at him.

After the event we went back to the hotel to practice.

We will perform three songs at the fan meeting and Yonghwa is a perfectionist when it comes to our performance. We dont want to disappoint these people who loves us.

I requested our manager to send flowers to her house. It also comes.with an invitation to.the fanmeet.

We were practicing all day and just stop for thirty minutes break.

Then its dinner time. We were happy with the practice, everything s ready for tomorrow. I cant hide my smile and the others comment on it.

"hyung is thinking of her again, " jungshin said in between chewing his food.

" shin-ah mind your own.." I said in mock anger, but I cant hide my smile.

Manager Bruce gave me a note earlier, it said

                                              I will definitely come to

                                                the fan meet. see you.

                                              and gomawo for the invite.

                                                                                *^▁^*

Tomorrow, come faster please!