Dreaming of Dhez (Eclipse)

cont... Friends and Lovers (rated PG13)

We went to Busan and I asked my mom to recommend a good place.

She gave me the address. I told her what happend and she is concerned about Dhez.

" I will tell your sisters so they will know." She said, " Take care of your girl Hyun. I have to meet her after all this stopped "

" ne omma." I answered.

The place that my mom chose is secluded.

There is a row of trees and a long driveway. If you are not familiar to the place you'll never know that

on the side road is where the house is built.

The van left after the driver gave me groceries saying YDG wanted to give it  to Dhez and me I thanked him.

Dhez just sat on the sofa.

I roused her after I cook another ramen.

She's just looking at me and her actions look robotic.

I tugged at her hand and she followed me to the dining table.

She ate but its just like she is going through the motion.

There's no life in her eyes.

I ask her if she would like to take a bath and she nodded.

I ran hot water for her and added some cold water to make it lukewarm.

Then I carried her to the bathroom.

Her eyes widened a bit and she held on my hand.

" Are you afraid ?" I look at her, " I'll leave the door unlock ok? I'll wait outside "

She look at me and I smiled at her. Then I went out.

I sat on a chair near the door listening in case she calls me.

I  dialled Yonghwa's number and deliberately made a missed call.

Then I sent him a mesage with a code.

I know he will know its from me, Its something only the four of us know.

Then I heard Dhez cried out.

I ran inside. She was sitting in the corner the towel loosely wrapped on her shoulders.

On the window there is bird flapping its wings.

I went to her and carried her inside the room.

She is shaking and crying silently at the same time.

It really broke my heart seeing her like this.

Theres no light in her eyes. Only fear.

I held her face " Dhez look at me," She just continue to cry.

Im getting desperate. She wouldnt look at me.

I hold her two hands but she became agressive and pushed me to go away.

"Dhez!" I called her name. she doesnt respond.

I held her face and look into her eyes.

She doesnt seem to see me and she just continue to cry.

I kissed her to make her stop.

At first she didnt respond. I held her hand and kissed her deeply.

" Dhez, its me, Its Hyun look at me please", I whispered to her.

She stopped crying and look at me. Her eyes showing recognition.

She embraced me , " Im so afraid." she said quietly, " is it wrong for me to love someone like you?"

I cant bear the hurt in her voice. I kissed her again.

She kissed me back.

Her hand holding on to my face. I kissed her eyes and her nose.

Then I kissed her again on the lips.

I was overataken by some emotion. I wanted her to feel secure.

I wanted her to feel love and not this hurt .

I couldnt control my self.

" saranghae Dhez, only you and no one else," I whispered to her.

We were both caught up in the moment. I wanted her to be mine.

I throw cautioned to the winds. I lay her slowly on the bed and kissed her again, slowly.

She is looking at me with love now. Her fear is gone.

" saranghae Hyun, " she said and her eyes shines with all her love.

I groaned her name and we made love.

I never knew it would be too soon but she needs me and I wanted to give her my everything.

She slept in my arms and I cover her with the blanket.

" saranghae my love I wont get tired of telling you over and over. everyday. ilove you."