Old Friends (lucaya)

Eleven: accept you

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Maya's POV.

Lucas was all over me but it just felt wrong.

"Lucas, stop" I said

"What? Why?" He looked disappointed

"I'm not the one you love"

"How many times do I have to tell you? You are the only one I've ever wanted" he grabbed his neck

"I.. I don't have feelings Lucas"

"You do, you know it, like at the parties where you desperately wanted to make me jealous, like right now, when you kissed me"

"Let's get some things straight, YOU kissed ME, and I also fucked Sam and I don't give a crap about me and he doesn't give a crap about me either, and with the jealousy thing, it wasn't to make you jealous it was because I'm a slut"

"Maya you're not a slut" he grabbed my hand and I didn't react.

"Lucas you don't understand, my life is not the fairytale yours or Riley's is. I live alone Lucas, the Matthews only took care of me because they pitied me. I'm a failure, my family is a failure, well, what family right?" I shook my head

"I love you" he started "not for what you don't have but for what you have, you're pretty, smart, sarcastic, and above all, deep inside you know you're a good careful person."

"I refuse to accept I have feelings so I can say that I... I accept you, is it cool with you?" I tried

"Only if I'm allowed to do this" he grabbed me and kissed me.

"You are" I smiled

After a while kissing Lucas and I decided to go.

"We can go to my apartment" I suggested

"Yeah, I have a party tonight so I was wondering if you wanted to..."

"Sure" I grabbed his hand "let's go"

We reached the apartment.

"It's here" I told him and he smiled widely

"It's beautiful" he added

"Yeah, the Matthews rented it for us" I smiled

"You're really close to them aren't you?" He asked

"More than you can imagine" I started "what time is it?"

"It's 4:15p.m." He said and then grinned "we have the whole day to ourselves" he made a pause "we can do this" he kissed my neck

"I can't believe I let you back in that easily" I pushed him back in a playing gesture

"Oh so you think that was easy?" He came back and stood really close to me.

He was way taller so my head was millimeters away from his chest and I was looking up.

I bit my lip.

"Fuck, if only you knew how you make me feel" he carefully grabbed my waist not to touch the wound with one hand and touched the side of my face with the other one.

Then we leaned in and kissed.

"Lucas" I muttered

"What babe?" He asked.

Those words made me freeze. Babe. He hadn't called me that since we dated, he hadn't called me that since 10th grade.

"Kiss me" I smiled and he kissed me again.

We laid on the couch, I was above him and we made out for hours.

"It's already 7, do you want something to eat" I asked him

"Only if you want something" he responded

"I don't"

"Well that's good because I want to eat you" he grinned teasingly.

"Oh shut up" I laughed at the comment.

"Make me" he teased and I stuck my tongue in his mouth.

"That's what I'm saying" he muttered and I ran my hands through his hair.

After kissing for a while we just laid there and looked at the wall.

"Maya" I heard

"What?" I asked

"You fell asleep, we should probably go to the party" he said

"Sure cowboy" I got up "let me change my clothes first"

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