Kaiden, the 3 other idiotic musketeers and I have been the best of friends for years.
Did Kaiden and I consider of being in a relationship together? Yes, we did. Sadly though, we ended our relationship after 1 year (or less?), we slowly ran out of time to be with each other because of school activities and such. But we still are friends. We've made a promise to each other that the both of us will be the bestest of friends and no one would replace that.
Sure we'd joke around like a bunch of idiots that you see in 'YouTube' with the pranks that we do to one another when we get the chance to chill at someone's place, but I felt at peace during these times with them.
But one time, Kaiden and I were in an argument about forgetting one another.
Kaiden just pushed me away from him, somehow forcing me to forget him. I chose to stay, because everything he reasoned out was nonsense. I wouldn't just forget everything. Like who would forget those memories that you and your loved one made just because your loved one tells you to? Days passed and finally, he apologized.
But stupid me and my ugly-ass pride, of course, I didn't accept his apology. So I continued ignoring him.
Until... One fine morning of August 11, 2017. An earthquake happened in Batangas with a surface wave magnitude of 6.3. My school had to suspend the class as early as possible 'cause Batangas is just kilometers away from our place, so I've been expecting a text or news.
And then, I received a call from one of our friends, 'Amy'.
To be honest, she sounded.... dead serious and devastated.
Her voice was shaking.
Of course, I thought that it was another one of those prank calls that they usually do to make me cry or angry.
"Hey? Have you heard?-"
She stopped and took a breath and I was about to say something when-
"Kaiden's in the hospital. Dead."
My jaw dropped.
It couldn't be true.
I can still hear her talking, but I tried to believe that everything is not true.
But she was crying too.
I felt myself tremble, denying the fact that it's true.
I ended the call, still trying not to believe.
2 days later, I finally had the courage to call Keobi (Kevin), Kaiden's cousin..
It was true.
My sight went blurry because of tears filling my eyes, I felt my legs weak, my heart skipped a beat and all I heard from Keobi was,
"He died from a heart disease called Mesothelioma. He was at Stage 4."
I asked him if he was not lying. But he let out a disappointed sigh and said...
"He's dead. And he was looking for you when we sent him to the hospital."
A year passed, I haven't visited his grave. I thought that I was still not ready to see it. Until finally after another year, I decided to go see it.
I never cried so hard before.
Losing someone you trusted,
someone you loved,
someone you enjoy being with,
someone who actually understood you in times of frustration,
someone who would give you the will to live more,
to dream high and aim high,
to never look at yourself as someone who doesn't fit in a society,
is too much pain, too much regret, and too much torture.
Even until the present time, I would beg for the time to take me back to where it all started.
To when I should've accepted his apology,
To when he tried to push me away,
To when he said that he's perfectly okay, when he was not.
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Unwanted Heartbeats
Kısa Hikaye"Hey? Have you heard?" I thought they were joking. "You better come to the hospital right now!" I thought it was an awful prank. "Please! Just go-" I ended the call. I ended the call and thought it was all a lie. I ended the call and thought that it...
