Edward Cullen's Little Sister

Chapter 19 (Part 3) - Anger

Without even thinking about it, before anyone can even say hello, I launched myself at Rosalie, knocking her to the ground.

I pinned her down, holding tightly onto her wrists, me straddling her waist.

"Why?!" I yelled at her "Why the hell would you tell Edward that Bella was dead?!"
"Get off me!" She yelled. I did not. Instead I hit her.

"How could you? This is all your fault!" Before I can hit her again or tell anything else, a piece of strong arms grabbed me from behind and dragged me off Rose.

"I'm not finished with you!" I yelled back over my shoulder as Jasper dragged me from the room, my arms pinned to my side.

He took me up the stairs and only let go of me once we were in my room and he had shut the door and sat me down on my bed.

"El, I know you're angry but-"
"Don't tell me to calm down, Jasper," I growled "my brother could die and it all her fault," the volume of my voice rose toward the end knowing Rose would hear.

Why would Rose tell him? If she'd just kept her mouth shut there wouldn't be an issue at all.

I was too angry and upset to stay in that room. I needed to get out, to run through the forest knocking down half the trees. I needed to hit something or find some way to get my anger out. But Jasper was stood in front of the door and I knew he wouldn't let me out until he was sure I'd calmed down.

So I lunged at him. Jasper being the fighter he is, was not surprised by my attack and grabbed my arm when I lunged.

I tried to punch him and throw him off but he blocked every one of my attempts. I got even angrier yet he still blocked my punches. Why couldn't I get a hit on him? A second later, he had me pinned on the floor.

How had he gotten me so quickly?

Like he knew what I was thinking Jasper said: "You get too emotionally involved. When you fight when you're angry or upset, you lose some of your technique and don't fight like you can do. The angrier you get the worse you fight."

I didn't answer Jasper. I tried to throw him off but I couldn't. What was wrong with em? First my gift, now this.

"Just let me up," I growled.
"So you can go back down stairs and attack Rosalie again?"
"Get off me," I snarled. I'd never snarled at them before. I was too angry to care.
"Not until you're calmer and less angry."

I tried again to throw Jasper off but nothing worked. Probably because he's seen it all before.

I got more and more annoyed as I lay there, pinned by him.

After what seemed like a long time, Jasper sighed and I felt a wave of calmness wash over me. It was a strong wave and I did feel a lot calmer. Not that I could do much to help that.

Jasper stood up and so did I. I made a move to leave the room but Jasper shook his head and said: "Why don't you just stay here for a little bit?"
"Fine," I said, going to sit down on the bed, still feeling calm.

Jasper sat down too after a second.

Without the anger, my other emotions started to break through. Everything I'd been holding back since I found out Kyle had moved. The barrier broke and it all came pouring out.

I started to shake which was followed by a small sob. Of course, there were no tears. Then the sobs came more frequently and violently until they wracked my whole body.

"What is it, Ellie?" Jasper asked, concern and panic clear in his voice. "What wrong?"
"Everything," was all I said as I continued to sob.

Jasper wrapped his arm around my shoulders and comforted me whilst I sobbed. It took quite awhile before I had calmed down at all and it wasn't by that much.

"What's upsetting you, Ellie?" Jasper asked. "This whole thing is just causing all the pain, about Kyle, I held back to surface and I hate it. I'll never see him again. And Edward could die. We've barely spoken in months. I've only just got him back, I can't lose him again. Jasper, if Edward dies I don't think I'll be able to get through it."
"You won't lose him. Alice and Bella are doing everything to save him and I have faith in them that they will."
"But I should have gone. I stayed behind because I didn't want to see Demetri instead of going to save my brother." I started sobbing again.
"Seeing Demetri only would have made your pain worse and you can't take any more. They will save Edward. Alice and Bella both love him and will do everything they possibly can."

"But what if it's not enough." I couldn't help the images that were filling my mind. Edward being killed by those monster. "And if Rose hadn't told him then none of this would be happening."
"Sitting here blaming people won't help fix the problem. And take it easy on Rosalie, she did it for you."
"What do you mean she did it for me?"
"She thought it would hurt you too much to tell Edward Bella had died so she did it so you wouldn't have to."
"Now I feel bad for attacking her."
"Don't, I would have done the same."

After I felt composed enough to go back downstairs, we did.

"I'm sorry," I apologised to Rose as soon as I saw her. "If I'd known why you did it, I wouldn't have been mad."
"No, I'm the one that should be sorry. I never should have told Edward before checking with you and Alice that Bella really was dead. And I should not have told him after you specifically told me not to. I truly am sorry for what I've caused to happen."
"It's fine. It's not your fault," I said, hugging her, even though that was a lie. I wasn't going to hold it against her, as long as my brother lived. If anyone died I would not be able to forgive her.

"Alice called," Carlisle said, entering the room. All the Cullens were here but the Denalis were giving us space to sort this out.
"What did she say?" I asked.
"She said they've landed and are on there way to Volterra. She also said the Volturi refused Edward which gives them more time." That was good.

I caught everyone up on everything that had happened in Forks. They were especially surprised to here about the werewolves having previously thought there were no longer any in existence there.

Now all we could do was wait.