Already I have faced heartbreak, someone I thought I loved broke my heart. Even though I ended the relationship I didn't want to, but what hurt the most was the pain of knowing that after three days of being separated he fell in love with someone else.
What can you do? All I did was put on a brave face and face my demons, little did I know that I would have to face them everyday, seeing them together makes me feel sick because it's what I used to have, it's what we used to be like until he became distant and decided to ignore me.
Recently I have been wondering why the people I have a relationship with end up with either my best mate or my ex-best mate, my life sucks and there is nothing I can do about it.
From now on I'm setting myself a goal and that is to not fall in love, to not give someone my heart so they can rip it from me and break it into tiny fragments. My whole life there is only one person I can count on and that's myself, obviously I love my family to pieces but I can never let some boy break down my walls and find a place in my heart.
Never again shall I feel that heartache unless I choose to let someone in, in the hope that they will not break my heart.
I know there are many people who know far worse pain and suffering but for me so far that's the worst pain in the world, it's the pain that consumes you and you can do nothing to stop it.
I will keep my goal, my promise to never let someone close enough to hurt me, with that I shall end this heartache and end this chapter of misery. I wonder what will come into my head and what I will decide to write down, well type down on here.
