It's been a while since I wrote anything and I guess it's because I haven't had anything to say apart from the fact that my dad is an ass.
Thursday the 11th December we had a Christmas concert at school and my sister and I invited my mum, my dad and my nan, the whole way through it my dad looked like he couldn't give a Damn.
Not once did I see him smile, he yawned and looked miserable, by the end of it I wanted to slap him across the face and tell him not to come next time if he was going to act like a dick.
Another downfall is that even my mum didn't know what was wrong with him, no one did he wouldn't tell anyone of us and that pissed me off big time because he ruined one of the funniest nights of my life in high school by acting like a four year old who didn't get what he wanted. He looked miserable, he looked angry (god knows why) and he looked like he wanted to be anywhere but there. Does he not know that music and drama mean a lot to me and my sister? Does he not get that we wanted him there to see us perform?
Another big part of that night that got me down was the fact that when I went on stage it took my mum about two minutes to figure out who I was, that's right she didn't even notice me just because I had slightly longer hair that last time I was on stage and I am fatter. My own mummy didn't recognise me. That hurt like hell.
I guess it's hard trying to stand out when all you want is to hide in the background. But, the one night I could be free and have a laugh was the one night that my mummy didn't recognise me and my daddy was in a fowl mood I wanted to knock the frown off of his face.
The Christmas concert was funny but also disappointing for me on my parents behalf. Thanks guys.
If they ever read this I don't know what I would do, because knowing me this would hurt them or I would end up crying and saying it was nothing either way I got this off my chest even though it was like three nights ago.
