I don't get it, why life has to be so, so hard. Everyone wants to know how you feel or what's on your mind. But guess what, I don't know.
My head is mine to get lost in, it's mine to wonder what my future will be like and it's mine to emotionally break down in and not let anyone else know about it. I guess what I'm trying to say is that even though I have a tough exterior and I hardly ever show emotion, inside I'm trying to find the words to tell my story.
For me writing things down is easier then telling people face to face, you don't have to deal with the look in their eyes or on their face. My life isn't necessarily the one I wanted or so far it isn't what I expected, I'm fifteen years of age and already I feel like I've lost so much.
My heart may say one thing but my head says another. Which one do I go with? Which one will ensure me that I don't have to face heartache, loss, pain or fear. Currently all I feel is anger and so far everything I have done doesn't help.
