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Chap 9

I wrote a chapter earlier but it got deleted, now I have to write again :/

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After I had done breakfast, Ben texted me back after I asked him for the meeting. He asked me to meet him at his place.

I got dressed and asked him the time, he also sent me his address.

As of now, I'm in front of his house. Just at the door. I adjust my clothes and hair once again before ringing the bell, the door opens as soon as I ring the bell. Almost like he was already waiting for me standing right here.

"Hello, Ben"

I give him a smile while greeting.

"Hey Zayn. Nice to see you again"

He extends his hand as I take in the offer and we shake hands.

"Come on in"

He turns aside, giving me space so I can finally enter his house. I take a step in his garage. A car and a bike come into my view, some unused stuff that I'm not able to figure out what they are, also sit there at one of the corner.

He starts walking in front of me, I follow behind him, going into his house and a normal sized lounge is in front of me.

An odd set of brown sofa rests in his TV lounge. A big TV is placed on the cupboard, while a black table stands right in front of the biggest sofa.

Right in front, there is a room, I'm guessing is his and a kitchen right besides the room.

The other side of the lounge, a joint dinning room without door is there as well, where a dinning table set is placed.

There are many decorations in his small house, making it feel homey and warm. Some Polaroid pictures on the wall of his dinning room.

Big and small vases with artificial flowers in them are placed in some of the corners. A clock rests on the lounge wall.

Even though, his house is small but its homey, warm and comfortable.

I like that.

"You can sit on the sofa. I'll get something for you"

Ben says, pointing at the sofa for me to sit on before heading towards the kitchen.

"Just a glass of water would be enough Ben. Thank you"

I call him before he can go to the kitchen, I catch him nodding before going towards one of the sofa and taking a seat.

If Harry were to ever see this house, he'd want to decorate it more already.

I smile at the thought of him, but also can't help feeling a bit of pain in my chest, knowing he's not here and how much I miss him.

"Let's just wait for Kelly, Mark and some of the other people that I thought were important for this meeting"

Ben says while coming towards me and handing me the glass of water.

I nod. I don't know who Kelly and Mark are and I don't ask him, I'll eventually know when they come here.

We start a conversation about how difficult and different the solo career is going to be for me.

"If you start your tour, that would be the hardest. Because there wouldn't be anyone except your team and a couple of bodyguards. Whereas, being in the band is very different. You don't feel that alone"

I listen to him carefully before nodding.

"Yeah, I know. Infact, I don't even know if I'm ever going to be ready for the tour without the boys"

"I'm sure after a couple of performances, you'll be okay"

Ben​ speaks, hoping to make me feel better.

"The interviews, performances, photoshoots, award shows, everything is going to be very different but there's going to be enough experience zayn. You're going to be able to know who you are and what you're capable to do"

Those words of Ben made me calm even more than I should have.

I knew even before, that this is gonna be enough experimental but I never really give a chance to the thought of a new me before. It was always for Harry.

Now I've realized, that it's not completely for Harry and even if I did say this was for me as well, the reason behind this all was still Harry.

But now it's different, this is for me first, then Harry is always my first priority.

I'll get better as I said before but with that I won't push all the experiences about to come in my life. The happy moments, the memories, that I'll hopefully make, I will have to accept them.

"Thank you Ben. I never realized that learning about myself was something I ever wanted but now, learning about yourself, I'd say is new and beautiful"

I give him a warm thanking smile before he pats my shoulder.

Soon enough, Kelly and Mark, Brooke, grace and some of my bodyguards were here and I learnt that Kelly and Mark are my publicists, while grace and Brooke are my stylists. Brooke is my hair stylist and grace is my outfit stylist.

Bodyguards are my bodyguards.

They're quite friendly and funny. Knowing we all are meeting each other for the first time, so we're still judging each other.

I know for sure that we'll get closer and become more comfortable as the time passes.

Even though, I want it to pass away like air but I know it'll all take time until I'm with Harry again.

My heart breaks and I feel hopeless when I think about harry.

"So what was it that you wanted to talk about zayn?"

I hear Ben's voice suddenly making me jump out of my damn thoughts.

"Oh yeah, uh. It was about a song"

I look at each of them, they are sitting at the sofa beside me. Ben is on one side and Kelly and Mark are on one.

I'm in the middle.

"You've written a song?"

Kelly asks, locking eyes with me.

"Yes I have. I wanted to release it"

"Jesus, already? We'll have to talk about that with the whole damn label"

Ben says, mark just looks at me with an unreadable expression on his face while Kelly nods.

"This Saturday, bring your song and stuff in an office, I'll send you the address"

Mark speaks, suddenly.

Great.

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