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Chap 14

(short chapter, sorry)

I wonder if Harry has moved on, if he's with someone right now. If he has forgotten about me. I wonder if someone is making him happy after I broke his heart.

I wish for him to be happy- but I've always wished for myself to make him happier/happiest. I hope- if he does have a partner, then I hope that someone is making him real happy.

I'm sitting in my graffiti room at the moment- on the floor with a guitar in my arms, thinning of a song to sing.

As Harry is on my mind, and how much I miss his presence, a song comes in my mind.

'Ain't no sunshine' - Bill withers.

Harry really loved that song, and I hope he still does. It was his favorite song.

I start singing while playing the strings. Feeling the lyrics in my bones. This song is about a partner being away for too long, and now that Harry is away from me and I actually have no sunshine around me- I can feel this song.

If only he could hear me.

I sigh, and put the guitar beside me- on the floor.

It's been about a year since I've seen Harry. I still feel the emptiness, like there's something huge missing in my life - which is what's actually real.

He's a huge part of my life. A part I can never forget and never will.

A whole year since I've seen his gorgeous green eyes that always left me with goosebumps on my skin. One year without him speaking to me, him telling me every single detail about his day.

It's been a year since seeing him mad at me for not eating- and I might not be able to stay away from him anymore.

I did my best. I've healed. I finally don't have an eating disorder. My anxiety has been in control- and so has been my depression.

I'm ready to go back to him.

I will finally have him back after all this time.

After long long hours of conversation about H to my therapist- to waking up in the morning and not finding him beside me to thinking if he has moved on.

He's probably writing an album right now.

There are rumors going on around about Harry's first ever album, which might be self titled- it's also trending on the Twitter.

Sounds like people might know what he's doing now a days.

I get up from the floor to climb downstairs. Feeling hungry, I make my way to the kitchen.

Getting some steak out and putting it on the table to finally eat it- I also grab a can of 7up as I sit down.

I think of going on my phone for a while when I realize it's in my room.

"Fucks sake"

I whisper, standing on my feet and walking out of the kitchen--towards my bedroom.

I open the door, grabbing my phone that's on the side table right beside it, once I grab my phone- I close the door again, making my way to the kitchen.

I repeat my previous actions, sitting on the chair, facing my dinner as I unlock my phone.

I go on Instagram and scroll through the infamous explore page, going a bit down when I see a picture of Harry.

My heart races and I feel like my insides just exploded.

He looks... Okay. He seems to be laughing at something, my eyes go to a girl behind him, who has a drink in her hand just like Harry.

That's probably his manager's girlfriend, I remember her face but not her name.

He has long hair now, like long long. He looks so good in them though.

I feel myself smiling as I look at him smiling. He literally looks so beautiful.

I can't wait to meet him. Can't wait to tell him how many songs I've written about him.

Can't wait to apologize.

I close the phone, thinking about a God damn boy in the picture as I finish my dinner.

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