The Suicide List

I woke up with Kayleigh beside me.

She was sound asleep, hair on the side, sheets on her naked body, still the most beautiful person I've ever seen. I smiled while tucking her hair on her ear, trying to look at her calm face, thinking about last night. I really thought that last night is just a kiss. I never thought it's more than that.

I let love get the best of me. I told her last night that she is beautiful and I meant it. I asked her not to cover herself and when she didn't, I admired what I saw. I kissed and touched every part of her that made her Kayleigh, especially the cuts on her thighs and her hips, smirking as I hear her sighs, whines, groans, and her moans which is also my favorite sounds aside from her laugh. I gave her as much pleasure as possible. She's the love of my life. And I would give everything for her.

But when she gave me a green light, I really made sure that she had the thought of it. Her past hurt her, and triggering it is the last thing I wanna do. But she told me that she's ready and she thought of it for a while. She knows that I won't hurt her and she trusts me. We were both aware that the deal hasn't been finished yet, but she didn't care. All she wanted at that moment was for me to love her. And I did. I made sure I loved her right.

After everything we did, I held her close, kissed her forehead, and finally told her I love her since we were nine until now. To my surprise, she said the same thing and told me not to leave her, which made me hold her more. I knew that I'm not and should not go anywhere.

I then heard a groan and I smiled. She then moved quite a bit and her eyes opened. As soon as she saw me, she smiled, "Hi."

"Hi." I smiled, "You okay?"

"I'm okay."

"Did I hurt you?"

She shook her head, "No."

"You sure?"

"I'm sure."

"You hungry?"

"Do you ask these many questions Sebastian right after everything?"

"Can't help it. I wanna take care of you."

She giggled, "How about I ask a question."

"Go ahead."

"Did it hurt?"

"What?"

She then pointed her lip, "When I kissed you?"

I laughed softly, "No. In the contrary, it's glad it went through you."

She slapped my shoulder, causing me to laugh, "I'm not hungry Sebastian."

"Well I am." I smirked, "How about some Kayleigh Barrow for breakfast?"

She then pushed me gently and giggled. Her giggles, I swear, is pure heaven, "Eat something else."

"You're something else." I said softly.

"I know." She smiled, "That's why you love me."

"True." I smiled, "I'm gonna go get us breakfast." I said as I dressed up.

"Hurry up. No fussing around." She laughed then smiled, trying to be a lame boss.

"Favor though." I smiled.

"Yeah?"

"Make me a statement."

"Come here." She smiled as she pulled me, making me be on top of her. I then placed my arms between her, making sure I won't crush her, "I love you. Your turn."

"I love you too babe." I said as I leaned in to her and kissed her before I went out and made us breakfast.