Battle Scars

Chapter 40

*THE THINGS ABOUT JACK AND JACK ARE FAKE (WELL SOME)THEY JUST GO WITH THE STORY*
"What's the video about?" Jack G asks
"10 things about anything" I say and he smiles
"Wassup guys sorry I haven't upload for ages I've been on tour with all my friends including.." I start
"Jack Gilinsky"
"And Jack Johnson" they say
"Okay today's is 10 things about anything" I say
"Johnson you wanna go first" I say looking at him
"Okay sure no. 1 is I come from Nebraska/Omaha no. 2 I'm a dad" he says smiling
"YASSS" I say and he puts and arm around me I put an arm around Gilinsky and we smile
"Shenaye would you like to be in our music video?" He says looking at me
"Yes oh my gosh that seems like so much fun!" I say smiling jack J finishes
"Okay so mine are no.1 my daughters funerals funeral is tomorrow" I say my smile dropped
"R.I.P to our daughter" Gilinsky says I was bit shocked as he hugged me
"The tears are coming I can feel it!" I say and he laughs
"No.2 my best friend Emma is on a date with her husband right now so shoutout to Emma and Cam, no. 3 Iam not a slut." As I said the 3rd one Jack and Jack looked at me confused
"Well that's one way to say no. 3 IM NOT A SLUT!" Gilinsky says and I laugh
"No. 4 the only reason why it's his baby is because I was drunk and stupid don't drink guys!" I say and Johnson looks away I put and arm around him I just didn't want people hating over it, I finished and it was Gilinsky's turn
"Oh and I I'll put no. 11 I love you Matthew Espinosa" I say randomly
"What the.." Gilinsky says laughing
"What" I say looking at him and we all laugh
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I edit the video for ages I look at the time it was 11:00pm as soon as I look at it Johnson walks past
"Shenaye you have to go to bed! You have to get up early" he says
"Okay mum" I say and he laughs I get down and put the Mac Book up and I get a message from Matt
'We are threw how could you actually I don't want to know I thought you where different I don't won't no excuses no nothing just leave me alone' I look at it and put my hand over my mouth and start crying
"What wrong?" Gilinsky says he was In his boxers shirtless they both where but I don't care there my friends Cam, carter and Emma where asleep
"He dumped me He believed Nash, that's why Nash left I hate him so much I should have never trusted him" I say more tears coming down
"He was going to be the Dad I love him so much" I start crying into my hands they both sit next to me
"Next time I see Nash-" Johnson says in anger
"Don't sink to his level" I say to him
"I hate seeing you hurt" he says I look at him right into his eyes
"Your going to be a great Dad" I say and he smiles
"I'll try my best" he replies we had another group hug
"Thanks guys a lot even when use cheat on me use will always be in my heart" I say smirking at Gilinsky
"It was a mistake! Okay I'm sorry you where just so-" he says stressing out
"Annoying ugly, fat, underestimated, imperfect, I'm a failure I can do anything right, depressed, suffering from anxiety, I'm disgusting and you don't seem to really care yep you got me Gilinsky" I say and he looked at me shocked
"Shenaye... I didn't say any of that! You are beautiful and have an awesome body you can do things right stop saying that I'm the one that fucked it up not you okay!" He says
"Yeah but I'm the reason why you cheated"
"Shenaye stop! Okay stop trying to take the blame" he says more tears come down
"Shenaye please.." He says hugging me I cry more
"What the fucks going on" carter says yawning
"a lot Matt just dumped Shenaye! For no reason she didn't sleep with Jack you know that Carter you told him of for trying to talk to Shenaye" Johnson says
"I know but it his choice not mine I've got my own problems just go to bed its past midnight guys"
"Whoops sorry Carter and what problems would you be having?" I say wiping my tears off
"Emma and Cam are-" he says I start laughing
"Okay I know what you where going to say good luck" I say laughing go Emma!
"Goodnight guys" I say hugging them
"Night" they reply and Johnson gives me a quick peace on the cheek I was so shocked why do they like me?! Like I'm just ew. I get into bed and close my eyes.
*the dream*
I was trying to run but I couldn't I trying to
"Matt!" I yell he was standing there he turns around I tried to run after him but I just couldn't the car was coming I seen it
"Matt watch out!" I yell but it was to late the car smacked into him
"No!" I yell
"Matt!" I yell
"Matt! No" I yell again and wake myself up I sit up and start crying I get down the bunk and walk to Johnson's bed he was sound asleep I get under his blanket and dig into him he wakes up
"What's wrong?" He asks
"I had a bad dream" I say hugging him
"Well you can always come to me..." He says wrapping his arm around me we hug in tightly and I fall asleep again.
"Shenaye come on we have to get up" Jack says shaking me I groan he sits up and get out of bed he picks me up
"I don't know how you can pick me up" I mumble and hold onto him
"Your not that heavy" he says I hold onto him tightly and wrap my legs around him he puts me down on a seat. I finally wake up fully and I put the skirt on followed with the crop top i put leave my hair out and put a hair band in it with a pair of white converse I walk out
"Woah Shenaye you look beautiful" Johnson says
"Awe thanks" I say hugging him tightly he had a tux on
"And you look very handsome" I say Gilinsky walks out and looked at me
"That's the dress you wore..." He says shocked
"That's the tux you wore to Emma's wedding" I say acting like I was shocked
"I didn't want to put makeup on because I know I'm going to cry today like I cry every other day so yeah" I say grabbing my purse everyone walks out Carter had jeans and a shirt on and so did Cam Emma had a nice dress on it was similar to mine.