Paper Airplane - (XueXiao Oneshot)

The Reason

Xiao XingChen's pov

There once was a place that such painful sorrow can grow. We can only share our feelings and our thoughts by using paper planes that can soar through the air and reach the other side of the fence.

Everyday, when my father goes to work, I would escape from the hospital just because I made a promise to that person that I will always be there, telling him stories or just talk with each other.

Everytime I sit here and read one of his letters, I can feel my heart grows warm. How can we keep going to hide our growing feelings from the world?

One day, everything crashes. My father went home and was furious. He said that he is afraid of that boy and told me to stop what I was doing. I do not understand why would he be afraid of him. All I need is for him to be always by my side and going there is thr only way. What could be so wrong with the feelings that we share?

There is a light that tries to brighten up this room and it shows a dark, painful and false future. "I need to see him right now." I said to myself. But I'm too far away. I lost all of the hopes that I have when I noticed that my legs refused to move. I want to see him one last time.

Even though I try, no one will ever listen. Death will be here soon. I became worried, worried about him, about what will he do when I finally left the world, when... I die. So this is what my father wants to tell me. He was afraid of that boy as he is the reason why I always run away from the hospital and get rid of these tubes that is on my body. I'm sorry, father, but that place is where my heart and happiness lies. I don't wish to be such a cruel son to you but I really wanted to see him, at least one last time.

When my body gave me one final chance to walk, I used it to run away from the hospital and go to him. I used all of my remaining strength just to see him, to be with him one final time. I sent my message through the air using the paper plane. I said "goodbye" but I am not gonna cry even though it really hurts, I do not want him to see me looking weak because I already am. And then after a few moments, I received his answer. It says, "Please don't leave! Can you not understand how much I need you?! You are the only one who can make me happy in this place. Will you come back again? All of the letters you sent to me.. I've always kept them close to my heart. So.. I will still be here and wait for you until you return." I tried really hard not to let a single drop of tears fall from my eyes. If making him hate me would be better, I would do that. I walked away, trying not to give him a glance because I am crying already. I do not want him to see me cry. He spent his life in that prison with no one and here I am, walking freely outside and I will just let him see me cry?

After we shared our final moment, the next day, my body finally refused to move. I can not move a finger. I know this disease will finally take my life away. That fence, barrier or whatever it is that divided us will be gone, at least for me.

I want him to continue, forever on the other side. Will he still smile even though I will not come back? What a silly question, of course he will not. But, at least, I want him to have his new happiness once he is free. Just the thought of it makes me really happy and sad at the same time. How I wish I can witness that.

The flower that is standing in a patch of dirty weeds, will no longer has the light to continue living. I only want the letters that he sent to me as I feel my life slowly fading away. I can feel my body slowly losing its heat. I feel cold. It is getting harder to breathe.

Even though I am weak and fragile, I have kept every single letter he sent to me. If I really die, I just want one thing from this world. I want him to survive no matter what. I want him to continue on living until his natural death comes.

I closed my eyes. All of the times that we spent together, flashes back. A smile curved on my lips as I hear the sound of the heart monitor go straight.

Please continue to live.

Since we met, we have spent every single day for each other. I will never forget your smiling face. That deep darkness that engulf us both by pulling us away.

Until tomorrow.. At that place.. With you..

Writer's Note

I just based this from a vocaloid songs. Those two songs got my attention and I love it when I first read the english translation so I just thought of putting Xue Yang and Xiao XingChen as the main character instead of Rin and Len 😊. Hope you liked it.