hey guys so the song for this chapter is called Everybody here to hate you by Courtney Barnett. i also decided for important chapters i'm gonna link songs to it so it'll give the book a more aesthetic vibe oof anyway without further ado lets begin shall we.
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Am i out of my mind?
Am i really going through this ?
Can i actually die in a hundred days?
I asked myself these questions in attempts to save my mind from being murdered by Mr. Schroeder long lecture of the Civil War.
Leave it to him to make history the most boring subject ever.
But it didn't matter to me, caring about school was a thing of the past. 10.5.17 was where my attention was really loyal to. After all i lost everything else to be loyal to.
For the rest of the class, i engaged in an intense staring contest with the clock above the board until the bell rang; declaring the clock the obvious winner.
The hallway welcomed me with silence which was foreign to the regular routine of everyone walking up to me,girls throwing themselves on me and guys asking,"How did you get so lucky man?". The difference between this past reaction and this current reaction is Tristan Swan. Tristan brings popularity, everyone knew me because he was there next to me but without him I had become the person i was before I met Tristan, the shy freshman who had no idea what he was getting himself to.
I knew they know i was alone, as i heard a sophomore whispered "the reason" to her friend to more exact, the the reason Tristan fed to everyone.I knew they saw me after all i was hard to miss but yet they kept their conversations about me to their-selves.
I should be bothered but i wasn't, i kept replaying 10.5.17 in my head like a song with no ending. It didn't matter what they said about me today,what really mattered is what they say on 10.5.17.
While my morning class dragged on, I caught up with my night rest until lunch rolled around. I packed my books and took out my sandwich then i proceeded to go to the courtyard. It was different from my usual spot of the all star table where Tristan but in case you haven't realised Tristan and I were playing the avoiding game.
The sky of Raven-wood never looked more miserable. Then again it always look miserable with its resident gray dark clouds. They were mean,vicious and downright scary. It scares away any sunlight that dares peep out, blinds the birds with its dangerous fog and when its really miserable, run because it cries a storm that leaves the town buried in water for days.
i wonder if the sky is actually grey in heaven when i die
heaven? dude you're going to hell when you die
The elders of town would tell you the sky is possessed and pull out the bible as evidence but honestly I just think it needs to get laid.
Besides the creepy sky, the town was like a little cult. Located in the heart of South Carolina but governed itself, it was home to pumpkin patch races, southern food, creepy old people and closed minded traditional villagers. Women rights did not exist in this town, instead men sat on the throne of power while their women slaved on a hot stove for them. Gay rights hahhaha! what is gay rights?, take them to the slammer you worthless faggot is what they tell you if you decide escape the closet. Racism was seen as classic humour in this town in fact it was a tradition to go to a black person's house and decorate it with shit, real shit. It surprising Black people still live here. What a beautiful place to live in.
"Hey Adrian" A familiar voice shouted startling me out of my daze. i slowly turned my head in the direction of the owner of the voice, Tyler Struat coming towards me.
Meet Tyler Struat, the notorious bed wetter to Tristan ass-kisser (I used to be the same way how hypocritical of me.) Came in like Jesus fucking Christ, Tristan resurrected him from social suicide and turned him into the popular asshole he is. It was easy to convince everyone that he was a reborned with his stunning physical transformation making him a perfect candidate for Tristan second top guy.
"hey man, whats going on?" he asked as he got closer to me.
"Nothing just chilling" i responded nonchalantly
he glared at me like nothing i said made any sense to him.
"well, Tristan is looking for you"
I froze at this statement
Tristan.is.looking.for.me
"why" I gulped
"Idk, he said he wanted to talked, look man i don't know what went own between you too but I'm sure its not worthy of breaking up a friendship everyone is talking about it so-"
"I don't care if they talk let them talk"
"but-" the bell interrupted him signalling my cue to leave. i hurriedly grab my things and rushed into the building before he traps me in another conversation.
If you were wondering the answer for that math equation, i was the wrong guy to ask. physically i was present in the class but mentally i was occupied with the question
"What could he possibly want?"
Overthinking thoughts tried to answer this question but I shrugged it off because I needed a realistic answer to calm me.
It was his rule to keep a noticeable distance now he wants to break his own rule.
"For what?"
By the end of class, I came to the conclusion that Tristan has the answer to my questions and I'm not ready to hear them. I didnt even bother to attend Chem, my last class for the day. I was just going to waste space there rather waste space at the comfort of my own home.
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I arrived home to an empty house which was the norm for me since the Eighth Grade.I felt the safest and the most free in my bed. Every idea, notion and highlighted events from my day would replay in my mind until my mind had enough and dragged me into an oblivion of sleep.
I probably got four hours of sleep in before my phone chimed off with notifications. Barely recovered from sleep, I stretched my hand to the nightstand where my phone sat neatly on. The bright screen woke me up instantly.
"Breaking news-Raven-wood's newsletter"
"Breaking News, Raven-wood High's student Alex Black who has been missing for two weeks was found dead at Raven-wood's River. Cause of death is unknown at this time, Alex Blac was last seen alive at Tom's house party on Saturday 28th January 2017 before she mysteriously disappeared. Police are investigating the matter at this time"
My phone dropped to the floor, I'm suddenly breathing hard but the air just wont go in. Its like my lungs were surrounded by metal bands. Next comes the rising panic,the dizzy feeling and the need to get low on the ground. All the doubt that clouded my mind about 10.5.17 went away as i realised it was my only way out.
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100 Days Before I Die
Mistério / Suspense"My name is Adrian walker and i need to fucking die" After witnessing a traumatizing event and blackmailed from receiving closure. Ravenwood's Adrian Walker once a popular jock is now abandoned by the love of his life and friends. Shattered from...
