SoUl EaTeR oNeShOtS

Kid x Self-Harm Reader Pt.2

A/N!!: IM BACK!!! SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING IN THIS BOOK! I WAS HAVING PROBLEMS FIXING MY LAPTOP AND TROUBLES WITH SCHOOL BEFORE LOCKDOWN AND IV'E JUST REWATCHED SOUL EATER AND THOUGHT TO UPDATE SOOOOOO... YEAH... SORRY! BYE!

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Kid's Pov

After (Y/n) Confessed to me she seemed to be doing alright, for a few months, staying clean and safe. Until recently, I've realised during class that she keeps losing focus, panicking a lot more and being distant during lunch and afterschool times, Im worried about her, I'm going to ask her about it.

"Class Dismissed!" Stein said, as the other students began flowing out of the doors gathering in groups.

"Hey, wait! (Y/n)!" I yelled after her and grabbed her arm. She turned to me. She was... Different? She looked exhausted and tired, had bruises on her neck and had a black eye.

"What? Are you ok Kid?" She asked me. I don't think she realises her situation and how messed up she looks.

"Am I ok?! Are you ok?!" I yelled shaking her shoulders, she just sighed smiling at me. It was Fake Obviously...

"Why wouldn't I be?! I mean it's a black eye and bruises Right?! Not like it matters anyway!" She laughs out, before crying and apologising, running out of school.

"Hey, Kid, is... She okay?" Liz asked as well as Maka, as the group approached me. I shrugged, concerned for her but angry as I didn't know who had done the damage.

"I-I... Don't... Know but I don't want her cutting again or doing any form of self harm!" I said, tearing up a bit. Everyone nodded until we thought of telling Stein again but that would only stir up trouble again...

"I don't know what to do!" I yelled out, frustrated with myself. Liz just told me to keep calm and stay collective, and think why she would do it again.

"We should visit her probably, just... To make sure" I said, before seeing her walk down the street and to the Forrest slumped over and tired... We all just stared at her lifeless body as she just kept walking and mumbling the same words over and over again.

"Stupid, Worthless, Pathetic, ugly, Useless, Retard..." I saw her sitting by a lake and hearing quiet sobs and tears hitting the still water. Until she fell asleep. Leaning against a tree.

"I hope she's alright" Liz said carrying her back before seeing a blade slip on the floor.

"I-Is that a blade?!" Tsubaki said gasping. I picked it up sighed in relief to see no blood on it.

"We'll ask her once we get back" I said putting it in my pocket and continued walking back.

As we laid her down on the couch after the walk back, I went to make food but I couldn't get my mind of her... I mean was she hurting or was she thinking of cutting again? Agh! I cant quite put my finger on it.

I had enough and walked over to her kneeling down and rolling up her sleeves to see nothing?? Has all this panic been for nothing? Phew!

"K-Kid? W-Where am I!" She yelled sitting up immediately and sighing. I told her that we found her asleep near the lake as we were taking the long route back to the mansion, and she bought it but was still upset by something.

"Hey, May I ask, were you going to... Cut again??" I asked her.

(Y/n)'s Pov

I began mentally having a heart attack before answering...

"N-No, why would you think that silly!" I laughed before he pulled a blade out of his pocket, causing me to shiver slightly...

"Then why did me and Liz spot a blade falling out of your pocket?" He eyed me suspiciously.

'What... The... Fuck... do... I... do... Now!!' I thought panicking like mad.

"AND, Don't lie!" He said frowning...

'He probably hates me... No I mean he DOES hate me now! I mean I just broke a promise to him! never to cut again and now here I am!' I sighed and gave up...

"Y-Yes, I was going to cut again, with things going on and with all the Kishen shit, I... I just don't know what to do!" I cried, getting up and walking away back to my house. Locking the door and running upstairs, grabbing my box of blades and cutting up arms again...

'I know you enjoy this feeling of control! Do it!... Kill Yourself you pathetic cunt!' The voices kept getting louder and before I knew I, 5 minutes later, I was staring down at the damage done, shocked... I was littered in cuts and I even carved a Madness Symbol on my chest and arms. I felt tired and began seeing black dots...

"N-No! I need to do M-More! P-P-Please!" I reached out to the blades again before seeing the door slam open and Kid throwing the box away, and Stein came and picked me up yelling something before I gave into the darkness...

I woke up, to see the dark sky and fire around me, Surrounding me, turning to my left I see Stein and Lord Death with Marie and Spirit being killed off by the Kishen, one by one, before seeing Kid and the group being slaughtered and their Souls being eaten...

'You cant escape death (Y/n)! It's something you cant run from nor avoid all your life!' I curled up in a ball seeing half of my Body light up in flames as I felt a wave of Anger hit me at once.

"I wont give in nor will I allow you to kill my friends you sick bastard! DIEEEEEEEE!" I yelled before hearing A familiar Voice call out to me...

"(Y/n)! Wake up Please!" KID!!!

I woke up to see literal hell on surface and everyone near the door frame away from me... I looked confused before realising half of my body was on fire... I tried to calm myself down before BlackStarran in with water and poured it on me...

"BLACKSTAR!!! NOW IM REALLY, REALLYYYY COLD!!" I whined. I hugged myself before everone else ran in and... Kid... Oh no...

"(Y-Y/n)? why?... why did you do it again?" He asked staring at my arms. I looked down, wide eyed and lifted my shirt a bit to see bandages on my chest too...

"I-I... Felt useless after allowing the Kishen to escape, after me being so fucking weak! It costed us peoples lives just for the cunt to escape!!! IT PISSES ME OFF THINKING ABOUT IT!" I yelled out yawning and banging my head against the wall...

"It's not your fault you know? None of us could've done anything to stop him at the time" Kid said rubbing my back.

"But everyone kept blaming me over and over again! So I just wanted to escape the pain so I just began to cut on my stomach as it's a place you wont check but because it hurt as well!!!" I cried into his chest and that's how we stayed for the rest of the night before Stein told us to leave or he'll dissect us tomorrow. I laughed and said my goodbyes till tomorrow and we just stayed up talking about how scary Maka is when she pulls out a book...