Chapter 9: No tears left to cry.
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Trevs
Kasalukuyan kong inilalagay ang ice pack sa gilid ng bibig ko, nang tumunog ang cellphone ko. I immediately grabbed it and answered the call.
"TREVSSS! " agad ko namang nailayo ang tenga ko, dahil sa sigaw ng kambal ko.
"What?! Wag ka ngang sumigaw! Ang ingay mo, ano ba kailangan mo." Tanong ko. He breathed deep, and then he answer.
"YOU ASSHOLE! LOOK AT WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO CHRISTIANA! " Sigaw nito. Agad naman akong kinabahan ng marinig ang pangalan ng taong mahal ko.
"What I have done again? " kuryoso kong tanong dito, habang nilulukob na ng pangamba ang aking sistema.
"FUCK YOU! CHRISTIANA ALMOST DIED AWHILE AGO! SHE ALMOST ENDED HER LIFE BY HANGING HERSELF IN THE CEILING. NOW, YOU'RE ASKING WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? FUCK YOU! KUNG HINDI KA LANG SANA PASAWAY AT MATIGAS ANG ULO HINDI AABOT ANG LAHAT SA PUNTONG ITO. HAISTTTT...." sigaw niya ulit. Agad naman akong natigilan, dahil sa sinabi niya. The love of my life almost ended her life, just because of me. Fuck! I already caused her too much pain.
Nung nakaraan I saw her too wasted and devastated ,I know I caused her too much pain, pero Hindi na talaga ako makatiis. Gusto ko na talaga ulit siyang makita.
At dahil nga sa ginawa ko at katigasan ng ulo ko, everything's messed up. I already messed it up, fuck with this stubborn chaotic mind! At ang results ng ginawa ko, I ended up putting ice pack on my face, because my twin brother planted some bruises from his brutal punches.
"FUCK YOU! AND YOUR STUBBORNNESS! " I can feel his anger within his words and I feel guilty for what I have done to my love. Kung hindi lang sana ako naging makulit, hindi aabot ang lahat sa ganitong punto.
"OK, sorry, sorry. I didn't meant to hurt her, I just fucking want to see her. You don't know how hard for me to let go and get rid out of her life. " sincerely, I said.
He sighed. "I know it's hard, really hard. But, please let it be, just go with the flow. Para din naman ito sa ikabubuti niyong dalawa. Hindi na tayo pabata, umayos ka bro! Grow up! You knew how you made her life miserable as hell. At hanggang ngayon pinapahirapan mo pa rin siya. She got through a lot. I admire her for being strong, despite of the pain breaking her down. Kaya sana naman this time, wag na matigas ulo! Ikaw tong panganay pero kung umasta ka parang bata. Be mature! " he said. Sa wakas kumalma na rin siya.
"Oo na! Pero, last na talaga 'to, bago man lang ako pumunta sa ibang bansa. Gusto ko muna siyang makita sa huling pagkakataon. " I said. I'm going to states and gonna live there my life, while I seeking myself as I making progress.
"HINDI KA PA BA NADALA?! " and again, muli kong inilayo saking tenga ang phone dahil sa nakabibingi niyang sigaw.
"Sorry, pero desidido na ako. Alam kong one of these days ay pupunta na kami sa states, at Hindi ko hahayaang Hindi siya makita kahit man lang sa huling pagkakataon. " sincerely, I said. Hope he understand.
