Missing You

Tear Myself Apart

Jo's POV
That night...

  I still haven't told him yet, I don't really know why I'm waiting. Maybe I'm just scared of his reaction. He went downstairs, to get god knows what. I'm just scared.

Scared that he'll leave me.

Scared that I'll be alone.

My breaths get quicker, and my chest gets tight.

I can't breath.

  I sit there, trying to catch my breath but I can't, it's so hard. Is this a panic attack? I get up, trying to make my way to the door. I fumble with the door handle. I open it, starting to go downstairs. "Hero..!" I say and I hear him drop whatever he was holding.

  He comes up to where I am, worried. He should be a lot more worried then he is. He holds me and I hold his arms tightly. "What's wrong, baby? Are you okay?" He asks me and I don't move, holding him close.

  "I- I- I can't breath... I can't breath." I cry and squeeze his arms. He shakes his head, and we're in the middle of the staircase.

  "Let's get you downstairs..." He says softly and I nod, leaning on him more. "Focus on your breathing beautiful." He says softly and I nod a bit more.

  "Don't- don't let go." I whisper the best I can and he nods. He helps me sit on the couch and he sits next to me. I lay my head on him and keep trying to breath. Martha comes up to me, her eyes fearful.

  "Let me get you some water, dear." She say and I just hold Hero's hand. I look up at him, the worried look in his eyes makes me frown.

  "I'm okay, I'm okay," I say softly and sit up a bit and he comes with me. "Babe, I'm okay." I smile softly and Martha gives me some water. "Thank you," I smile drinking the cold water. It feels amazing going down my throat, and smile as he kisses my neck softly.

  "What we're you thinking about, that made you like that?" He asks, and I take a deep breath.

Only that I'm pregnant and I'm scared you're gonna leave me alone.

  "Just everything going on, don't we have to start getting ready for your sisters party?" I ask and he chuckles.

  "Yes, and don't worry, nothing bad is gonna happen to you." I smile, nodding before I finish the water and hand the glass to him.

  "I'm gonna go get ready then," I smile and make my way up the stairs. Once reaching our room, I open the door and close it again, leaning on the back. That was close... he won't forgive me now.

Mercy's Party...

  Hero and I walk into the party. It isn't like a normal party we would go to, but more formal. I don't know why it's that way, but I'm thankful. I can wear a dress that isn't skin tight,

One that doesn't hurt.

  The dress is red through out, with the belt and top half being velvet. It has long sleeves and a plunging V neck line. My shoes are a simple beige, but Hero can't take his eyes off me. It's not like I'm wearing anything extravagant, and I'm wearing minimal make up. I guess it's just men.

  "You're not leaving my side," he whispers in my ear before bringing me over to his sister. I smile at the thought and I'm happy to never leave his side.

I'm sure he'll think differently once he knows.

  God I have to stop thinking like this, it'll only hurt me, and possibly the baby, in the end. "Mercy! Why would you want your graduation party so formal?" Hero laughs and hugs his sister.