Missing You

Gets Better

Jo's POV

  The entire ride back to the hotel, I wouldn't let go of Hero. I'm scared, traumatized, and overall just want to feel safe.

And this is where I feel safe.

With him.

  I don't even care that I lost the shoes, what I care is that he's here. It might be insane, especially since I broke up with him. But I need him right now, more then ever.

  Hero opens the car door for me, and I feel numb to everything. I was just running around these streets, trying to get away from Jason... the person who works here.

  I pull him back by his arm, more tears running down my face. He knows where my room is... oh god he knows where my room is. I start shaking as I continue crying.

  He comes back into the car, bringing me closer to him and I cry into his chest. He plays with my hair a bit, and my breathing starts to get better.

  "Hey... is okay, I'm here. You just gotta tell me what's wrong." He says softly and I play with his shirt. "He works there Hero... I- I can't..." I break down crying again.

  "We can move hotels, but we won't be able to check out until the morning..." he says softly and I nod a bit. We both get out of the car, and he holds me when I start to fall. "I got you, I got you," he says as he catches me.

  He helps me into the hotel, and I keep my head on him as we're in the elevator. He goes to press my floor and I look up at him. "Can I stay with you...?" I ask, with my voice cracking. He nods, and doesn't press my floor.

  As were walking to his room, I grip his hand tightly. I don't even think he knows I'm not wearing shoes but honestly, it's the least of my worries.

  He opens his door and leads me in, making sure that he doesn't let go of my hand. We go in and he sit on his bed, and I follow but go between his legs. His hands are on my waist, and I want them there, but I'm so scared... I don't even know what happened, just the outcome, and it's terrifying.

  He moves my hair out of my face and I keep my hands on him to steady myself a bit. I watch him look down and so does his hand. I hold his shoulder tighter, I know he wouldn't hurt me but I'm just... I don't know anymore.

  He brings his hand up, after touching my leg a bit. I miss his touch, so badly, but my head is everywhere else but there right now. He looks at me concerned, then looks down again looking at my feet. He sighs softly, and looks back up at me.

"You need to shower ba- Jo..." I wish he would have called me baby. It would've made me feel better. I shake my head, holding onto him more. "Please... I don't wanna be alone..." I say and he nods. He then takes my hand and brings me to the bathroom to wash his hands.

I look at myself in the mirror, he did this to me, Jason did. I wanna to hurt him, or I want someone to hurt him. I lean my head on Hero's arm, needing the contact with someone who makes me feel safe.

"Are you drunk...?" I ask softly, look at him in the mirror, his eyes are beautiful, they always are. He shakes his head. "Uh no... I've been too worried about you that I had a drink and some club soda." He says and I nod.

  "I'll- I'll take a shower... but- but I need you to be in there with- with me..." I finally get out, and he looks down at me.

  "I will... but you need to tell me what happened." He says and I nod. I try to get onto the counter, so he helps me up. I tell him everything. From meeting him when he was the bell boy, to waking up and running from him. By the end I'm holding him close to me, crying into his chest once again.

  He's holding me, right, but not tight enough to scare me. I reach my hands up, playing with his hair. It's such a foreign feeling that I miss so much. "Can we please shower now... I'm covered in sweat and- and blood..." I say, biting my lip to keep the tears back.

  He pulls away and quickly nods. He starts the shower so it's warm when we get in. I get down and try to unzip my dress, which Hero helps me with.

  Once we're both in, he lets me stay in front of him. I let the water run on me, and it feels really good. I lean back into him, and he holds me. Everything just feels so good. I turn around to face him, I just wanna kiss him, so badly. Is that wrong?

  He moves my wet hair out of my face, making me smile a bit. He smiles a bit too, which makes me happy. It makes me wanna forget everything that's happened the past 10 hours or whatever.

I just want him.

  I go on my toes a bit, leaning into him a bit. "Jo..." he breaths out and I go on my toes more, and kissing him. He pulls back a bit and looks at me, in shock. "Jo... you just...-" I cut him off, "I want this right now Hero... I want you." I say and then kiss him again.

  I don't know how far I'm willing to go with this, but what matters is what I want right now, and it's him. I push him against the wall a bit, taking control. I start kissing down his neck, hearing him moan. "Jo we can't..." he groans and holds my hips a bit to stop me.

I whimper, I don't wanna stop... I just want him.

  "Yes we can... I want you, so badly right now... you're the only reason I feel safe. I feel safe with you..." I say and he looks at me. I start kissing his jawline a bit, and he starts groaning a bit more.

  "Jo I don't wanna hurt you... not like he did..." he says though his teeth. I shake my head at him, "you're not gonna hurt me... I know you won't..." I say and keep kissing down his neck. I hit the spot that I know drives him crazy. He lets out a deep moan, picking me up and allowing me to wrap my leg around his waist.

  This is what I want, I want to feel numb. I'm feeling numb with the person I love. I don't care that that has happened to me, but I know, I just know I'm gonna regret this and feel guilty and hurt and everything in the morning.

But it's not the morning right now.
This is what I want.

  He kisses my neck, making me moan. I lean my head on him, holding his hand like I used too. I groan as he slides into me, it just feels so damn good.

  I know I'm going crazy, loosing my damn mind. I mean how can I feel something when I just got... I keep saying this is what I want, but what if I just need to feel numb?

  I lean my head back onto the wall and reach into his hair and tug a bit, moaning. "Fuck... Hero.." I moan out and he keeps going. Don't stop... please don't stop... I internally beg Hero, though I know he can't hear me.

  "Jo I close..." he groans and I pull his face so he can kiss me. I feel the tightness in my stomach, so I know I'm close too. I nod, "me too..." I moan and squeeze his hand. I lean my head on him more, I need the closeness, I know I do.

  We both let go, muttering each other's names. Once we're done, he pulls out and I keep holding him close. "Thank you..." I whisper and he kisses my head. "You're welcome... I just..." I look up at him and stop him. "Shhhh...." I say softly and lean on him more, letting the now warm water that's slowly turning cold pour onto us.

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Authors note!❤️

Hey everyone! I know this part is a little weird but I thought it would be kinda interesting to see how Hero or Jo would react in the next part! I hope you enjoyed!❤️